I don't wanna grow up, I'm an over-sized kid....

[tsukinofaerii]

Avoiding work again. Well, I'm supposed to be making tutorial handouts of frequent issues as busy work. Guh. Pain. And the only things I can think of that students have repeated issues with are things like "Downloading a File" and "E-mailing Your Teacher". Not things I want to actually sit down and think out the steps to. (Seriously - most of the issues are so simple that it's hard for me to remember how they're done!)

Looking back over the last few entries, I'm kind of starting to wonder if work is dragging me away from Fandom. o.o My recent posts have been more politics (LJ and RL) and memes than my usual randomness. Or family complaints, though those still happen. I haven't even written a fic lately. Well, I haven't posted a fic lately, mostly because I reached a new low in my writing and am not really sure I want to attach my name to it. (sweatdrop) And I don't mean low as in style or grammar. It's all content. Scary content. o.o; And yaoi has been non-existent, possibly because most of my posting is from work, and while no one's looking over my shoulder I'm kind of hesitant to accidentally hit something NSFW at the exact wrong moment.

Am I growing up?

NOOOOOOOOOO~!

Someone reassure me that I'm immature and obsessed? Please?

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The original acronym for YAOI basically means "no plot, no point, no purpose". IE: smut. XD It's a sign, I tell you!
Ooooh.....signs get interesting. o_o Lol; wow, someone went out of the way to make sure that made just no sense, yes they did. XD (YAOI for "no plot, no point, no purpose".... yeah, makes much more sense then using "npnpnp", I suppose. XD)

I worry about me some days.
*Grins* You would, haha. I worry about people all the time, for the silliest reasons. (Silliest reminds me of silly, which reminds me sillily, and did you even think that's a WORD?! It looks like Sicily, and reminds me of Greek mythology....wow, from the word silliest I go to Greek mythology. *Blinks in surprise*)

Where does that word come from?
You must love those dictionaries or whatever. XD (Lord knows I spend enough time in them. I have an excellent vocab, but I just LOVE new words, and they are SO many to learn! :D Amazing that I'm not a nerd....heh.) Well, it does make sense. But I could've told you what smut meant, lol.

Bad thoughts are probably good too.
Too bad I don't really think "bad thoughts", lol. You're encouraging the corruption of the young! :O XD
I can be highly perverted; easily up there with Jiriya and SO could surpass him. However, that's merely because I'm creative. I'm not naturally a pervert, but it can be fun to mess with people's heads. *Laughs*
That reminds me of my best guy friend... he is not nearly as perverted as he pretends to be, but has fun doing the pretending. He's one of the very few people I'll fool around with (goof off), so he and I mock-flirt all the time, and it can get SO perverted. It's hilarious.....XD (It's always funny when you know how to turn on your best guy friend. *Sniggers* Or any guy.....*Smirks* Whether ot not you use it, you know how, and it never fails to amuse!)

(snicker) The "white girl", huh? What a label. And being the only one around, not really a subtle label either. Enjoy. :D
Yup..... but it's quite funny, really. They know I don't really act like a white white girl (I don't really act like much of any color, really......*Shrugs*), but they go by skin color, of course. And boy am I pale. XD

Hmm... Age... well, I already know you're a teenager, which is kind of cheating. I'm thinking.... 17, almost 18. Within four months of 18, anyway. You're old enough to be going to cons, but still a teenager who's young enough that no one would play chess with you. Almost 18. Yeah. (nod)
Woah. *Grins* Nice. Well, really, you have a valid point there.
Sadly, almost 18? Well, I'm about 3 years younger then 18. *Smirks* I'm at one of my favorite ages; it's one of my fave numbers.

Social outcast hood is... strange?
Eh, well, my school isn't very cliquey, thank god. *Frowns* People are fair open; if you go up to a group and start talking about something they know, they'll welcome you fair easy.
Sadly, I'm NOT interesting in....well, really, most anything they're going to talk about. During any free time, I flip on my iPod, grab a book (people always stop t stare at the size of my books, and by the end of lunch, for example, which is 50 entire minutes (ridiculous!), I have the security all gathered around me, sitting or standing, and we're talking books, politics, and other such things. It's hilarious....but hey, no one messes with me! I've got connections, heehee. I'm friends with most of the teachers, and the security, AND the staff. And friends with only ONE of the students. XD

Bookstores, yo.
Yes.....but I will settle for merely reading them. *Sighs* By now any bookstore in the entire city I live in knows me. It's cool; people will greet me, stop to chat briefly, etc. :D Awesome, heh. And I help them out sometimes if I've got some spare time. ^^;

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It was originally Japanese - yama nashi, oche nashi, ima nashi. I suppose we just appropriated it. Npnpnp sounds like a raspberry. =P

Sillily... Always catches my spellcheck. ^^; So I never use it, because it bugs me to see it sitting out there unchecked and yet correct.

Dictionaries
I was hoping to find the root word - like, "from the French [blank]". But no. Smut pretty much comes from "smut". x.X It must not be special enough to have an interesting background.

About three years less? 14/15? Wow. o.o You really don't sound that young. I'm now feeling oldish. (watches her birthday draw closer) This just proves that internet ages are fallible.

Forget diamonds. Books are a girls best friend. Well, books and a well-hidden butter knife. (If you haven't read Everything Nice (http://www.fanfiction.net/s/3662327/1/Everything_Nice) by Dual you're missing out.) And really, it's probably better to be friends with faculty/staff than students. Better conversation and connections. Where as students give you... peer pressure. Er. And drugs. Yeah. Alcohol?

...

... What do students-as-friends provide? oO?

Bookstores
I wore out my library. Seriously. It's a tiny little thing, and I've already gone through it. x.X And if I start reading in the bookstore I'll either buy it or end up in agony when they have to kick me out at closing time. It's a book. It's not meant to be on a shelf. It should be in a purse, bag or bedside table waiting to be read when not actively being read. And then afterwards it should be reread and savored properly. I guess I just don't have enough will power.

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Oh, I know it was, of course. But still, it raises a point. *Shrugs*

15, yes. ^^; Ever so young. It makes me hate the way people constantly underestimate me. *Scowls* Of course, I underestimate myself a lot more then they ever could, but nevertheless, that isn't the point!

....Nope, I know about the butter-knife. *Snickers* I myself am not a fan of diamonds.....I'm just not. *Shrugs*

Students-as-friends provide interesting thoughts, if nothing else. *Shrugs* Luckily, I'm above peer pressure. I don't give in to it, because I know very well what those things do to and everything. Of course, about twice during the school year I have a freak-out, and I stay home during that day, lay in my room, then go downstaires and lie on the couch, and do absolutely nothing but stare blankly at whatever's in front of me. I don't do anything. And the night before is where my freakout really happens; I scream and cry and destroy anything I touch. *Grimaces* Thank god I can control myself well; I warn people a good bit ahead of time, and then shut them out.

Bookstores.
*Giggles* Aye, I agree. Books DON'T just stay there on shelves! *Scowls* It's such a waste!!!
Heh; I'm going nuts. I can't get to a bookstore every week, and the library's been out of commision for the past few months because they're re-building it! *Sobs* It's gonna be really cool, but in the mean time, I WANT MY BOOKS!!!

I've worn out two libraries in my life time. *PROUD* One was pretty tiny, but the other certainly wasn't. XD Back home (*I refuse to call where I currently live "home", as home is a place you love, and I do not love this place*) I was known as the girl who withdrew 20 books at a time. If I only withdrew a few, under 10, the librarians actually would ask me if something was wrong. x3

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"You'll understand when you're older" should be a capital crime. >Bookstores
Book "collectors" bug me. Why have a book you won't read? It's like throwing a sheet over Michaelangelo's David. oO???

o.o! You poor thing! Is there only the one library? Anybody with books to borrow? Good re-reads?

(applauds) That's truly a feat! You should get a plaque or something. Maybe a small trophy. (nodnod)

I worked mine a different way. At the time, I lived close, so I only took out three or four books at a time. But I always had my maximum out - I just returned them as I went, so the pile stayed fresh. The librarians only started noticing me when I started pulling out things like Nostraamus. :D Those were good days.

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Yes, it SHOULD be a capital crime. *Scowls* For crying out loud.....not to mention when they start understanding, they often hear things that aren't true, and so grow with wrong ideas....*Grimaces* I have the good habit of checking things four or five times before I will state it as fact. I just like making sure I'm right. *Shrugs*
But really. I discovered the other day in school that this highly perverted and horny lesbian in my class didn't know quite a bit about having any kind of sex with a female save one way; so she got really annoyed when this dude tried to "help her out" by "spreading some knowledge". And she HAD to ask how he knew how females had sex by themselves without males. XD She said his face was priceless, heh.

And because she's always teasingly hitting on me, she offered to show me what knowledge he'd given her.....

And oh, her FACE when I said "Just because I don't HAVE sex, doesn't mean I don't know HOW."
"You.....know how two girls have sex?"
"Many different ways. Of course." *Shrug*
"....*Jaw drops and then she pouts* Cocktease."

......I'm sorry, but that's her favorite nickname for me. Apparently I do things all the time that would make me one.... and since I know she won't stop, I just have to glare and growl and order her not to call me it outside of the classroom. To which she's agreed, thank god. *Grimaces*

I hate it when she calls me it, but it IS rather funny. *Shrugs*
I figure

bookstores
Book collectors do MORE then bug me. I know one who used to only collect the books. So I marched to his house, promptly grabbed three books, sat down, and started reading. Oh, he still hates me for it, too. *Smirks*
All MY books are lovingly treated. I never take any less then two books with me, wherever I go -- three, if I've already started one of them.

library
Well, there's another, but like I said, it's small and I've already read everything! (But it DOES have an excellent manga collection; it's awesome, heh) But there's not much in there that I want to re-read too much (anything worth it, I've re-read several times).
AND I WANT MY LIBRARY BAAACK! *Whines*
Well, I did borrow the complete works of Charles Dickens from my friend; she hasn't read it, but her dad has, and she lent it to me for christmas. :D But I'm re-reading all the books in my house, and at my friend's house("MEGHAN! You came over to entertain me 'cause I'm bored; STOP READING MY BOOKS!" "B-B-But Criiiiiiis!" "Lucy, I said no; now get down there and stop READING!" "Awwwww, RICKY!" XD)....and I want new things to reeaaaad!

Maybe a small trophy, eh.....Hmmm, I could work with that. *Grins* As a kid I always had to entertain myself. One of my brothers was just short of a decade older then me, and the other is exactly one decade older then me. So, as you can guess, I didn't generally play with them. My dad was a workaholic (He's gotten better on that, but still isn't home much....which actually is a good thing, in my mind....), and my mom was constantly sick. So, I took care of my mom, played Lady of the house and kept it roughly clean, and played inside (if she was sick) or outside (if she wasn't). And often I'd simply get a pile of books, bring them onto her bed, and sit and read, occasionally bringing us both snacks from the kitchen.

So, I read a lot. But that's all right. Of course, I now read so much that my parents often complain I read too much (....My dad's an english major, wanted once to be a mystery writer, and is considering becoming an english professor, and my mother has a deep love of books, as I do)! I once was complaining to my friend about how they were getting on my case to stop reading so much, and she started rolling on the floor laughing and holding her stomach.
Oh, I just glaaaaaaared.

But I do read rather too much. ^^; (NOT my opinion. One can never read too much. *Sniffs haughtily*)

Well, we didn't live too far from the library.... but I just always finished the books (usually read them about twice before we got around to returning them, lol) by the time we went back.
(c)

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When I started diving into the difficult, more "Adult" books, the librarian's called over my mother and wouldn't let me take them out before she verified she trusted me and would let me take out what I wished. Haha. And then she asked if I thought I'd be okay reading them, and I giggled, saying, "I think so! Mom recommended them, and Da agreed with some of them! Most of them he rolled his eyes at, though. He's not a big fan of fantasy."
XD
I think I was around 7 at that time or so. *Snickers* Maybe 8. It was still funny though. Instead of limiting my reading, mom lets me read whatever I want. I think I could read a sex book and she'd encourage it....simply because she knows I'm not into sex, but nevertheless. *ROlls eyes and laughs*
My parents are funny. "Hey, what're you reading?" "Dictionary." "Ooooh, have fun!" "I am; so many cool words!"
XD

Oh, I am a weird one, I am. But I love being weird. So much more fun then being normal! (Normal? What's Normal? I've never heard of such a thing! Actually, did you know the meaning of the word has changed since, say, Shakespeare's time? Back then normal meant the higher class, nobles, very rich merchants, etc. Now it's just a mockery of a word. x3)

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They asked your mother? For just regular adult books - not the kama sutra or anything? That's so wrong. Time and time again, I'll say it: if kids have to go through an adult to do something - no matter how educational or beneficial - they won't. And books are important!

Sex books are... interesting, depending on which ones. (sweatdrop) Some of them are pretty interesting in a "huh, so that is possible" sort of way. And then there are the ones that take a Cosmo approach. "Try this new, exciting, never-before-seen trick that's been around since humans discovered genitalia but no one knew, really! Believe us!" What saddens me is when people believe them - that type's almost never accurate.

The dictionary? Really? You just beat me out - I've never done that. ^^; I like plot.

"Normal" doesn't exist. :) Not as it's used now, in any case. If we're all unique and special snowflakes, how can anyone be normal or abnormal?

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No, not the kama sutra or anything, lol. But apparently some of them had heavy cursing, or "details about, hrm hrm, the human body", or other such things, lol. It was funny....but annoyed me slightly. You'd THINK, if they knew how intelligent I was, they MIGHT cut me some SLACK. Sheesh. *ROlls eyes* Actually, I'm pretty good with going to adults about things. I've never been the type to rebel against adults, really; my ballet teacher beat it out of me before I even considered it. XD (not literally she didn't; but if you wanted to make it in her class, you WORKED, and I settled for only perfection -- so I was a disciplined little bugger. Which, has come in a lot of handy...now if only I could get rid of procrastination, I'd be set. XD)

Sex books are boring, but interesting at the same time. The ones that are, "so it IS possible..." are interesting. The other ones are merely boring. Yes, I have hormones; but I still think it's boring. *Shrugs*

Dictionary.....well, I go for plot too, but I'm reading a chapter's worth every day or so. I adore words; love them to bits. And the words out there....some simply shock me! *Laughs*
My brother, the middle child who's 22 years old, is learning his little sister has a bigger vocabulary and is smarter then him. XD I think it might've helped boost his interest in going back to school....at least a little, haha. Poor Tyler....*Sighs* He and I don't get along. We're both too different, and yet too much the same.
I think I sometimes make him feel dumb. (PAYBACK FOR ALL THOSE TIMES HE MAKES ME FEEL DUMB AND AN IDIOT! HA! HAHAHAHA, IN YOUR FACE!)

EXACTLY. Normal and abnormal no longer exist....and I laugh when I think how often people think they're "normal". (My retort when someone says they're normal and I'm not? "In what world?")

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You'd think that if you read anything that raises questions, it's not going to be in fantasy novels. Adult stifling of childhood curiosity irritates me. Old enough to ask questions = old enough to hear the answer. This may be why I'd be a horrible parent.

You took ballet? You don't seem like a ballet type of girl... Huh. Disciplined, I can see though.

Yeah. If it's impossible, I spend more time wondering how that works than enjoying it, which kind of ruins the point of reading it. It's sad when I've read really bad fanfics that are still better than some published smut...

Dictionaries have chapters? Or do you mean a page estimate?

LOL Ah, revenge. That's the nature of most siblings, I suppose. Though he deserves it if he makes you feel like an idiot. Have you been using esoteric language around him? Just to help with the punch?

"Normal by who's standard?" With all the diseases running around (Restless Leg Syndrome? oO; Huh?), it's so strange that people try to claim benefit of being Special while at the same time trying to be Normal. Then there's the old turn-around that if everyone's Special and Different, then no one is. (Though that'd be nice... if no one's Other, then we're all In-Group.)

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Actually, I like that motto. I think I may adopt it. *Grins* Lord knows I can't recall a single time I've told someone "you'll understand when you're older", or anything. Usually just because I know veyr well they sometimes DON'T come to understand completely. However, I base my answers off of my knowledge of the person asking. *Shrugs*
This wouldn't make you a bad parent at all. My parents are both the same; if you ask, they'll answer. They aren't afraid of their children asking questions, because it means they have a healthy curiosity. And lord knows I ask questions; I've always wanted to know EVERYTHING. *Laughs*

Don't seem the ballet type, huh. Well, let me put it this way: dance+swimming+running+books=my life in a nutshell. xD
As a kid, here was my usual schedule:
Sunday, day off. Usually ran around, built forts, played pretend, dress-up...usually playing pretend, or arts and crafts.
Monday, school, running, dance after school.
Tuesday, school, running, swimming after school.
Wednesday, school, running, dance after school.
Thursday, school, running, swimming after school.
Friday, school, running, dance after school.
Saturday, dance in the morning, swimming for several hours (I also played pretend during this time), home in time to do my homework (I was an A student quite easily, school was very fun), do some playing pretend, watch a movie maybe while reading a book and still playing pretend, bed.

And believe me, there were quite a number of other things. Art lessons began when I was around 9; ended when I was 11; I also played some sports when I got the chance, read like mad, took baths that lasted no shorter then an hour (that was amazingly short, for me, haha; I would usually be in the bathroom for 2-4 hours; the water was my home, and I played pretend for quite a long time, heh), pretended I was a scientist or a great chef and would mess around with recipe's in the kitchen, etc, etc, etc.

Some kids would've died. Me, I THRIVE in that kind of schedule. I always have something to do; so long as i have my own time, I won't get stressed. *Smiles slightly*


*Winces* Aye, yeah. I never actually enjoy it, except possibly in fanfiction, which even then I don't read it because it has it -- I read it because the story is good. Unless the person just writes really good sex-scenes; and then I might fave it, because of how well-written it is. *Laughs*

Page estimate, aye. I suppose to a dictionary, it would have about 26 chapters; one for each letter of the alphabet, and all that. *Frowns thoughtfully* But no, I'm talking page estimate.

Well....I use esoteric language often without meaning to..... I think the biggest compliment he's ever directly paid me is that I'm "very eloquent and articulate". Oh, but how i cherish the memory of him telling me that. *Rolls eyes*
That reminds me.... last night I discovered (I may have realized it before, but i was too tired to remember) that when I'm half-asleep, I tend to speak very poetically; my words get a rhythm to them, I describe beautifully, and it all sounds quite lovely, really. Even if I'm talking about death and destruction, it still is quite....well, awesome, I suppose. *Grins* I didn't even really realize it until recently; it's just been something I've DONE, y'know?

(Though that'd be nice... if no one's Other, then we're all In-Group.)
Dude, yeah. XD That was funny.
Aye. Well, from the cradle up people are taught to be conformative(I don't believe that's a word, but it is now), and to do that, people want to claim to be both "normal" and "special" at the same time. One of my teachers put it rather nicely the other day when trying to explain the difference between schooling and education (I was the only one who already knew the difference) -- she said, "With schooling, you learn how to take orders, and obey them. They teach you how to conform. With an education, to learn to MAKE orders, and GIVE them. You learn to think for yourself, and stand on your own two feet."

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My mom was ahead in the race of making their kids "different" and all that, haha. She raised me with blue, one of my brothers with green, and the other with purple. XD She never did like the standard "blue=boy, pink=girl" thing. Ugh, neither do I or my brothers. *Shudder*

I feel rather sorry for my family at times. They wanted a little girl, and they ended up getting me. xD

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LOL My brother offically got blue (his baby blanket) and I got yellow, but I don't remember ever starting to like pink when I was a kid, so it must have started early. As far as I know, my brother never gave up on blue.

lol Well, they did get a little girl. Just for a certain value of "little". You're certainly a girl!

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*Snickers* My mom said yellow was a lovely color -- for a kitchen. And indeed, their kitchen was a nice, bright, airy yellow. But she said she didn't want her kids to have yellow, not when she saw so much of it from them. *Makes a face, then laughs* It was a joke betwix her and da.

There was a brief time when my favorite color was pale pink. It was because it was the color of the flowers my da got me after one of my dance performance's. *Smiles* Pink is still one of my fave colors in nature, but I can't remember the last time I wore it. *Laughs*

Am I? *Checks* Darnit.... I was hoping I'd changed over night. *Grumbles*

Well, no, I mean; they wanted a little girl that would be more feminine, while still like some boy things, like ninja turtles and sports. :D Well, they got the one that was into boy things... unfortunately, not so much into girl things. I would take out anything my mom put in my hair within two hours (maybe almost a full school day if i was REALLY good), I'd put shorts or pants under all my dresses and skirts (i was a very 80's style, but man did I have the world's coolest fashion sense back then!!), and I was more then willing to get into a go-cart and start racing my 7 and 10 years older brother. XD

Ah, but I was a stubborn, strong-willed, and strong-minded girl even back then. THe tales I could tell. *Grins proudly in remembrance* Now where'd that girl go? *Pretends to search*

I think our talks are getting to me. Last night I dreamt i was Axel, and I was actually hanging out with Roxas. *Falls over laughing* Me! AXEL! XD

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... Yellow is a good kitchen color, isn't it? Cheery, but not annoying. Hm. But the humor leaves something to be desired. Blech. x.X

Aw, that's a good reason to have a temporary favorite color. Fuzzy feelings there.

LOL Womanhood does suck in many ways. Guys have no clue how easy they have it. Still, I wouldn't trade it, personally. I'm comfortable with having a vagina. A penis would be too weird to get used to.

XD I did the same thing with dresses just for convenience. I used to love the jungle bars on the playground, but you can't play on them properly in a skirt. It flies up and everyone makes fun. :/ If you're anything like me, eventually you gave up on the skirt part. XD Being girlie is more trouble than it's worth. It always seems more about deciding what you can't do than anything you can, and who wants that?

lol I'm sure that girl's around there somewhere. Check in the sock drawer. I keep finding kitties in mine. Maybe your inner child is hiding there too.

XD LOL Fangirl moment! An awesome fangirl moment, as well. Did "Axel" molest him, or was it platonic? Probably platonic, I'm betting. (pout) And this has been going for more than a week, so I'd be surprised if it hasn't crept into your thoughts a bit.

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I've never decided on fave colors. Too many to choose from! T_T

Well, I wouldn't know. I mean, if you had it all your life, think how odd it would be to go from penis to vagina. Yeah, every guy's dream. *Rolls eyes*

lol; as a kid I didn't particularly care if it was skirts or shorts, although I tended to wear shorts out of practicality; I was always playing in the dirt and stuff. But then one day I was wearing a dress and my friend's older brother, Kenny (he was about 2-3 yrs older? for kids that's a lot....), dared me to climb to the top of this rope thing....there was knots in it and all that. normally he had his friends, and I had mine, but he'd heard Rebekah (his sis) telling their mom about how cool I was at swinging people on the rope-swing and all that.
So I, of course, accepted. But just as I began to step up onto the swing, his friend, Jesse, pointed out, "You're wearing a skirt." I blinked, and looked down, frowning. I quickly arranged my skirt so part of it ducked between my legs , and back up into the waistband, and borrowed a friend's belt to make sure it stayed. And THEN i climbed to the top, and they startled me by swinging the thing round and round while I was at the very top. FREAKY.

Nah, that's the thing -- Axel was going molest CTAZY on Roxas! (Roxas wasn't running. >_<)
Yup. That's just sad right there. I had a similar dream about two weeks ago, but it was harry potter and draco malfoy....*Falls over laughing*
And a different one of Gaara and Neji! O_o (Not a huge supported of the pairing, but it was great during the dream. *Snickers*)

That is SO sad. My inner fangirl expresses itself through molest-happy dreams, apparently. XD

But that is just SO VERY SAD.

Haha. Wow, the dreams I have.

Gaara looked bloody fantastic in modern day clothing, though. <_<

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Never decided? There's a decision? oO? Huh.

(rolls her eyes) I think that for most people the transition would be majorly disorienting. I think most guys stop thinking at "I'd play with my BOOBIES!" and never consider the grossness that femaleness entails. Of course, guys have their own grossness, but they'd be used to that. (Just like most girls would be seriously weirded out by suddenly having to figure out how to aim when peeing.)

HA! Why would Roxas run? It's Axel, who we all know is a Sexy Beast of the first magnitude.) I think you just have yaoi on the brain. Don't worry - it's incurable. XD

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Well, it also helps if I add that I don't like children. Not that anyone ever believes me when I say such.. But they're mini-adults to me. I was a mini-adult. There's no reason they can't be. So when kids act like... well, kids, it bugs me no end. I don't like dumbing things down to fit in their heads.

Schedules
... Wow. o.o I would have died. My schedule read something like "Breakfast. School. Home. Read. Bed. Repeat."

In fact, looking at it now, I think I'm dying in sympathy, and my schedule is pretty much hell right now. I think it's safe to say that you are much more disciplined than I. (pats)

Poetry in your almost-sleep? That's kind of awesome. You should try and record yourself and call it Art. XD Then someone can buy it and help finance college. Or you can just post it online for people to gawk at. Either works.

'Special' people... urg. Your teacher was smart, but that's going directly against everything we're taught from sproghood onward. *sigh* Which is sad... if people just accepted that you can either no one or only a few people "special", life would be so much easier. It makes sense to accommodate differences, but that doesn't equal a right to certain treatment!

To put it another way... it's the person on the inside that matters. I'm not supposed to care of someone's black, white, crippled or healthy... But what if the person on the inside is an asshole? Do I still have to be nice to them because they're in a wheelchair?

Wow, that was snarky. o.o;;; Eeps.

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I don't like dumbing things down around kids (not unless they're mentally slow, and then I only do it to a point), and therefore....don't. I merely put it into terms they could understand. (What do they know about the heart? Not much. Therefore, any description is filled with analogies they can understand.) I like kids, and they LOVE me. Even when I'm trying to escape, they follow. So if you ever see a poor teenage girl running away while a crowd of kids laughingly follows, please, HELP THE POOR GIRL GET AWAY! She's running away, and not for a game!
I know form experience. >_> But it's nice to be argued over. All kids love me; fact of life. *Snickers* And why.......I dunno. It's hard to keep my temper around them, but I do my best. ^^;

"Breakfast. School. Home. Read. Bed. Repeat."
*Sniggers* Heh. Dying in sympathy, eh? Trust me when I said there's a lot more that I added to that schedule. But that was the basic, never-changing thing. :) I was one of the youngest on the swim team, and one of the best. Probably due to my equal use of legs and arms; most swimmers are fast in arms, or in legs, or simply have a good stamina. I had a great stamina, and both good legs, AND good arms. It's because I was a dancer; I had the arms of a swimmer, and the legs of a dancer. *Shrugs* It actually worked out really well. And, I just loved it. Pure and simple. I might have even been able to give up dancing if I could keep on swimming. Although, I'm not much for competitions; I prefer it on my own time....just for fun. ^^;

You should try and record yourself and call it Art.
Dude, that'd be awesome. And hilarious. "MEGHAN! How'd you come up with this poem, RGHRTUYFDGFSHYhfhfsyrhf?! Masterpiece of the century!" "Well you see Stan -- may I call you Stan? Ah, thanks -- I was more then half-asleep, so I really can't tell you." "You were....half-asleep? You don't know how you did it?" "As with all masterpiece's, Stan. As with all."
XD I can just PICTURE it.

"Sproghood"? Must say, that isn't one I've heard. XD
My teacher, that day, was luckily only a sub. Thank god she wasn't a permanent teacher. I would've died; she treats us all like teenagers. And it's annoying to be treated like teenagers. At least she knew to treat us like SMART teens......which is better then normal teens I suppose...

But what if the person on the inside is an asshole? Do I still have to be nice to them because they're in a wheelchair?
Niiiiice. XD Very nicely put indeed.
Nope. Then you can be one right back at them. And roll your eyes when they put on the "pity-me, pity-me!" act.
Unless they actually need help. Then you can give it, lol.
Personally, I can usually work out my differences, except with some issues. I'm not known for keeping an enemy long......I'm usually the type to befriend my enemies. XD After, like, a year or something. I like the arguing and teasing, but it's rather tiresome to have enemies. It really is.
Of course, when you see one of the toughest kids in school, someone no one really likes, crying because something important to him was messed up because of someone else, and he'll never get the chance back.....

Well, what was I supposed to do? Walk back inside and let him be alone?! Excuse me, but that's not the way I operate.

I'm much too caring and soft-hearted. Ugh. e_e I just don't show it. Grrrrrr, and all that.

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Children
Rest assured, I will rescue any girls I see running away from packs of children. :D I'm good at keeping my temper with kids... But it doesn't mean I don't daydream about yelling at them. (sweatdrop)

I'm not going to a vocabulary that a child doesn't understand (what's 'anna-log-ee', Mommy?), but I'm not going to explain death as "they went to Heaven to be with Jesus" either. It just causes problems, and any child old enough to know to ask the question deserves to have it answered. *snort* Even if the adult is uncomfortable with the question. Maybe especially if they're uncomfortable with it.

Doing something jst for fun is the perfect reason to do it. ^_^ You're lucky that you were (are?) able to do two things you love that that. Not everyone can. :D

Art
The creative side of the mind works best when unfocused - really! You should give it a shot, just for kicks. It could be seriously fun, and at worst you can delete it if it's too embarrassing.

"RGHRTUYFDGFSHYhfhfsyrhf" is the best name for a poem EVAR. XD

I suspect I got the word sprog from the Shoebox Project. After that... Well, childhood, sproghood... That makes sense, right?

I guess it would be better than being treated as a "normal" teen... But if people treat teens as "teens" (cliche-type teens), then why are they so surprised when the teens act like it?

Teen: You always keep track of me! Like I'm a KID!
Adult: I keep my thumb on you constantly because you're a teenager and have no self-control! Your hormones will take over your brain and you'll do something stupid! Now stay in your room! (storms off)
Teen: ... (sneaks out)
[Next day]
Teen: I just had unprotected sex with a stranger.
Adult: I can't believe you did something so STUPID!
Teen: .............

It's far, FAR better to be treated like an adult. Then you usually return the favor.

People in wheelchairs
I do. This gets me in trouble. (sweatdrop) Double standards suck.

Enemies aren't worth it. All they do is annoy you to no purpose. It wastes everyone's time all the way around. (nods) I really can't think of an issue that couldn't be worked out but also wouldn't negate a possibility of friendship. There some things that just make the person not worth any effort whatsoever.

Aw, that was nice of you. :) You didn't have to, but reaching out like that makes the world a better place. (pops on Garth Brooks "We Shall Be Free")

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hey, I was seven when my mom told my about the first death in the family I was to experience. Unfortunately, it was probably also the hardest one -- her dad, my grandfather. *Grimaces* I was seven, she drew me into the room, and then let me go after telling me. I was crying, but was very quiet. I remember going into my brother's room and watching him silently scrub furiously at his floor, before I walked over to the bucket, grabbed up a sponge, and got on my hands and knees to scrub with him. All he said was, "Mom tell you?" "Mmm." And that was that. We kept our minds off it through cleaning. *nodnodnod*

That's true about unfocused.....because then you aren't worried about perfection. Lord knows I LOVE how my doodles turn out. XD

Dude, it is SO the best name for a poem. How could you think elsewise? *Snooty* Mua-hahahaa. My and my creativeness shall RAWK together, lyk totally dood.

Well, one of my former "enemies" (i laugh at the term; I think of them as "annoyances") and I are now good friends. :) Several, in fact. My annoyances and I are closer friends then probably my non-annoyances. ^^;

I'm nice like that. Wait, what'd I do? x3

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(hugs) That must have been awful. I suppose the human mind just functions like that sometimes... focus on something mundane and simple until the pain's blunted enough to deal with. :/ It's easier than trying to work through it when all the loss and worry and chaos is clogging your brain with emotion.

(nodnod) Why do you think great writers often wrote while drunk or high? (Hemmingway, I'm looking at you.) Being half-asleep is just a safer variant.

That's one way to make friends. Forget "if you can't beat 'em, join 'em." It should be, "if you can't beat 'em, get 'em to join you".

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XD (tries not to laugh hard enough to alert coworkers) Well, you have Eyes, Voice, Figure and Brain - you're probably lucky that Cocktease is all she calls you! You have only yourself to blame for your Awesomeness.

Bookstores
(snicker) You're a cruel woman. This is a good thing, though, because he was a cruel bibliophile. (shudder) Imagine, keeping books locked up on a shelf, untouched by human mind... At least books in a bookstore have hope! That's got to be against a law somewhere.

Libraries
... (hugs) Awwwwww. ;-; I'd loan you books, but I can't afford the postage - it'd probably be cheaper just to buy them for you. ^^; And if you've gone through a library, you've probably already read Terry Pratchett, and he's pretty much the only author I have easily available - everything else is boxed and stored because I only have one bookshelf in my room and I'm not risking my Aunt deciding to "help clean up my mess" by getting rid of the boxes. -.-; The Temeraire series by Naomi Novik is worth buying, though, if you have money to spend. And so it Privilege of the Sword by Ellen Kushner.

Charles Dickens. Geez, I haven't read him in soooo long. You should read him now, though. Everyone should read Dickens at least once.

Reading is one of those wholesome hobbies parents are supposed to approve of. Open a kid's imagination, increase their vocabulary... But I guess if it's cutting into family time, I can see what they mean...

No, no, I lie. I can't see what they mean. You can have family time and read - you just have to be in their presence and it counts, right? Anyways, they're bibliophiles too! They should understand!

lol I lived walking distance and took advantage of it. I went to the library daily. 500+ pages a day and school was nothing.

Actually, it worries me how little people read... I work in a college, and I like to eat my lunches outside if it's not too cold/hot. Food doesn't happen without a book if I can help it... and people constantly stop to ask how I can read such a big book. Or if they see me there regularly, they're surprised that I switch books every few days (less time to read now than when I was in school - sadness). I never bring anything huge in (won't fit in my purse), so... they're shocked at the size of a paperback novel. >.> Where is literacy going?

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Yes, I AM teh awesomness. 'Bout time you realized it. *Sniffs haughtily* Does that make me your equal? (Granted you're a fantastical writer and a goddess of yaoi, but nonetheless, I can hope. >_>)

Bookstores
*Smirks* yes, a cruel, cruel woman. 'Tis what I am, and I am proud of it. Books are MEANT to be touched, and read, and lurved! They was built fer it, I's tellin' ya's! (I do so love pretending to be an idiot. x) )

Libraries
Ooooh, Privilege of the Sword I've read. Not bad, not bad; not my favorite type of book, but it was fair realistic, which I did like about it. :) Haven't heard of the other series though; I'll have to get to those! :D Thanks!

They love books, but I do think I surpass even them. *Laughs* They like reading; they love it. I'm crazy in love with everything ABOUT books. Everything. But aye; I TRY to socialize, but I just don't fit in well with the rest of my family. They're all family-oriented, and I'm not. THey love spending time with one another; I don't. Etc, etc, etc. So me having to socialize with them can be a fair tricky business, bleh.

Lol, yeah. We once did this thing during sixth or fifth grade (both? can't recall) where we had to read at least a couple pages per day, record the book, author, from page to page, and then about what we read. And I read one or two books instead of just a couple of pages (back then I played a lot more, lol), so I'd have to write really small and very carefully to get both in. At the end of the year I'd read over 52k pages. XD I got a prize, wheeeeee.It was a contest to promote reading. I won hands down, second place was 20k something pages, which was still really good...'specially for 5th and 6th graders, heh.

Literacy, oh Literacy; wherefore have though gone, Literacy?
Eh, it's pretty sad, all right. I get comments from EVERYONE on it.....

Myah, I need to decide what I'm going to major in, so i can REALLY get crackin' at looking at colleges. >_< I'm doing really well with scholarships and colleges and all, but I still need to figure out what I want to major/minor in, ugh!

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Me? Fantastical writer? You must be confusing me with some other Goddess.

Not reading a book is like suffocating it. Literary murder! (You do it well. XD)

Libraries
I loved Privilege because it was so lush. The descriptions were <3. And the characters were utterly shameless. :D

Temeraire is sort of fantasy-historical... Basically, add dragons to the whole of human history, and then pick up the story in the Napoleonic Wars. Excellent stuff.

Terry Pratchett is Literary Comedy God. I swear. The Discworld series is his big one, but I've never read anything by him that I disliked. Good Omens alone (with Neil Gaiman) is worth its weight in platinum. Hardcover in platinum.

I take it your parents don't understand the allure of New Book Smell? Or of Reading It First? Poor them. :( I still don't see how family socializing can't happen with books. You can spend lots of quality time together with a book in hand.

I remember those things! I never won - I always forgot to count my pages or to bother with the work. (sweatdrop) 52k in how many months, though? And what size of pages? I seem to remember grade 6 books having pretty sparse pages.

Majors. Blech. I've only got an AA, and I'm still not really decided on my major. Not that I can really afford college - I can't afford to not work, and college would mean cutting back on hours... But you're not so old that you need to panic yet. Plenty of time to decide.

However, since you do procrastinate, a schedule might be in order..?

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No no, yousa a good writer. *pats head like a little child would a good dog*

XD

Not reading a book is like suffocating it. Literary murder! (You do it well. XD)
I love that line. I'm so saving that quote. XD Thank you, thank you. *Does a fancy bow with a flourish*

Privilege made me laugh. *Grins* The characters were very realistic though; I did like that.

Temeraire, eh. I AM SO GOING FOR IT! :D Dude, the description? History AND magic? Sold me right then and there. XD

My parents like the smell of new books, but don't understand the allure, no. *Sigh sadly for them* Me, I'll go just as crazy reading a book that's centuries old, as much as a brand new book. In fact, I'll go even crazier. *Grins sheepishly* me and my imagination go nuts around antiques, really. We do. ^^; Reading it first? Are you kidding? In my house, it's merely a race to READ the things, not reading it first. And basically, whoever gets their hands on it first and can hide it best, wins. My family was appalled to learn that I can read them faster then any of them. Like when the new harry potter book came out, I went with my brother to the bookstore to wait for our copy(I'm always the one to go with him, though we don't get back until around....oh, 2, 3ish).... and I did as I always do when I go to a bookstore -- find a good new book, sit down in some corner or aisle, and commence operation READ READ READ! Lol.
About an hour later my brother comes to get me, and makes me put the book up; he doesn't understand, and won't let me read in line, since we aren't buying it. D:
So he asks what page I was on (it's one of those odd things that I can't ever forget, what page I'm on; I also remember previous times I've read it where i've stopped, AND one what pages my favorite things begin. XD And me the girl with a weird memory, bleh), and I tell him I only got to page 313, thanks to him yanking me away. And he goes, ".......What size font was it?" I thought a moment, before saying, "Size eleven font, but I don't think it was times new roman; it was closer to a type then that, but not obviously so."

He just stared, and said flatly, "You skipped pages, didn't you." "....I'd miss things if I did that." "well, then you've read the story before, haven't you!" "...No.... if I go into a bookstore and have a while to wait for something, I almost never pick up a book i've already read, Ty."
"....You're expecting me to believe you read more pages then I could? Or dad? Or mom?!" And I frown at him, and nod. "You said it yourself on your guy's reading -- mom reads slower, but understands better, dad reads faster, but has to read a book twice or more to fully comprehend it, and you're somewhere in the middle. I read faster then any of you, and fully understand what I'm reading, while I'm reading it." and I HAD to stick my tongue out at him. XD
He sulked the rest of the night. Poor Tyler. *Snickers*

I don't like socializing. End of story. e_e

You read whatever books you wanted. I don't know -- ah yes; late September to early June, I believe. My books were never at 6th grade level, please. *Sniffs haughtily* (I do a wonderful Malfoy impression. XD) Well, with me it was simple -- I simply read to the end of the book every time. *Laughs* So I never had to count. Page size...oh, I don't know. Not small, as I wasn't a fan of very tiny books; they get annoying.

Well, what about scholarships? *Cocks eyebrow* Me, NOT panic over something? That'll be the day. XD

I know. I don't stick to the schedule. It fluctuates too much. Y-Y