I don't wanna grow up, I'm an over-sized kid....

[tsukinofaerii]

Avoiding work again. Well, I'm supposed to be making tutorial handouts of frequent issues as busy work. Guh. Pain. And the only things I can think of that students have repeated issues with are things like "Downloading a File" and "E-mailing Your Teacher". Not things I want to actually sit down and think out the steps to. (Seriously - most of the issues are so simple that it's hard for me to remember how they're done!)

Looking back over the last few entries, I'm kind of starting to wonder if work is dragging me away from Fandom. o.o My recent posts have been more politics (LJ and RL) and memes than my usual randomness. Or family complaints, though those still happen. I haven't even written a fic lately. Well, I haven't posted a fic lately, mostly because I reached a new low in my writing and am not really sure I want to attach my name to it. (sweatdrop) And I don't mean low as in style or grammar. It's all content. Scary content. o.o; And yaoi has been non-existent, possibly because most of my posting is from work, and while no one's looking over my shoulder I'm kind of hesitant to accidentally hit something NSFW at the exact wrong moment.

Am I growing up?

NOOOOOOOOOO~!

Someone reassure me that I'm immature and obsessed? Please?

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Tallahassee sucks. x.x But I've never lived in any other part of Florida, so I can't compare it to the rest of the state. I suspect it's the "you're Jewish?" questions I get about my pentacle. oO;; Highly annoying, but worse when I explain about Wicca and all the very not-Baptist of it.

Or a book falls on you. That's a lesser known hazard of research. Library books can be vicious when not properly respected.

Latin. Well, I wish you luck. I'm no good with latin-based languages other than my own, so I've never tried. (And even there I wonder...) History is something I find fascinating though. The Middle Ages were hilarious from an outsider's perspective. So much stupidity deserves a monument of some sort. People only happen once (and so do dates), so I completely meet you on not knowing them.

Revolutionary Girl Utena. (stare) Anime. Manga. Sensation.

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Yeah, I know. Nowadays, everything stands for something really not like what it originally stood for. Quite annoying, really. Like the modern version of "normal" and the old version of "normal." Well, I suppose Tampa could be worse, but I don't see ME liking it. (I can be quite open-minded. I choose to snub it. *Grins*)

But I DO respect libraries! (So I'm willing to eat in them. I clean up after myself, don't I?)
I have things fall on me all the time. it's me and my big feet; I'm quite clumsy. Quite. If I hadn't taken dance for 6 1/2 years, I don't want to KNOW how bad off I'd be. XD

You do realize to talk to me, one must had a decent grasp of a fairly complicated Latin-based language. *Cocks eyebrow*
I take French right now. What a joy. I once upon a time took spanish, but didn't learn well. (Not because of the language; I couldn't stand that school and, consequently, rarely did homework.) Those are the only languages I've studied as of yet..*Sighs*

History is funny, pure and simple. Sometimes you just want to smack your head in exasperation, though...the stupidity, I mean, really....

Revolutionary Girl Utena. Never heard of it. *Moves off to Wikipedia to research it*

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Or the meaning's lost to common knowledge, thus entirely confusing people when uncommon knowledge gets used.

Which is probably why a book hasn't attacked you yet. One of these days you'll accidentally spill something, and the next day you'll wake up with a headache and "A-Al" printed backwards on your forehead.

I said except my own. (pout) I'm more eloquent when I type, really. When I speak I tend to get lost hunting for words, where as they come much more smoothly at a keyboard. In Junior High I attempted both Spanish and French, and discovered that I'm entirely rotten at them. The grammar doesn't flow, vocabulary is too close to my own so often that I mix them up, and I'm utterly pants at remembering how to conjugate and where. Japanese is so much easier.

Especially when history repeats. "You've been fighting this same war for these same reasons for how many centuries? oO; And you're still doing it?"

Utena is one of those series that twists reality, time and moral relativity into something pretty mind-breaking. o.o The manga is nice and sweetly short, the anime ginormous, and the movie completely weird. Still, it's a pretty good series.

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XD Haha. A-Al, yeah; that'd be good. The books respect me, I respect them, it's a win-win. We all know books LOVE to be read, so long as with care. :D Well-loved!

I don't remember much about spanish, but that which I do know of French, flows quite well for me. I'd be more worried about Japanese and Chinese (imagine mastering them both; what a feat.....). Completely different from English. But really, it flows quite well for me. Once my mom came to me because there was some french in her book, and she wanted to know what it said. So when I read it, she squealed, and ran into her bedroom and said, "Dave, dave! meghan read the french in my book for me!!!!" And started squealing again.

I felt like a celebrity. And then started laughing. XD

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It is indeed a win/win. :D Libraries should come with warning signs, really. Especially these days when people think of libraries as somewhere their parents will never catch them making out in the reference section. (nods)

Which reminds me of another fic. (digs around for it) Geez, I wish I dared bring all of my links to work...

http://dual-avi.livejournal.com/20286.html

Poor Axel. XD

LOL I always feel like the one left out in my family. My dad used to be fluent in German and French when he was a kid, and now he's working on Spanish. Most of his siblings are the same of have more langauges. o.o; I have... rusty, half-passable Japanese. (sweatdrop) I don't think I'd dare ask anyone to translate something though, knowing what it probably means. (amused)

You are a celebrity! Everyone is to someone. (nodnod) That's sort of what Fandom comes down to, in a way. We all fan and are fanned, and this was it spreads around. Hard to be entirely depressed when you know there's at least one person out there anxiously waiting your next post/chapter/piece. Even if you don't know them as people, it's still a nice feeling.

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Reference section. Pffft, oh PLEASE. *Offended* How utterly old-school of them! I mean, really. Can't they get more original?
Nowdays it's the COMPUTER or TESTING room they make out in. *Snobbeh*
Haha.
Just kidding.
I haven't the foggiest. xD

I know. It's just too much fun. :D Really, the FEELING it gives you...*Sighs happily*

Ooooh, a link!!!!!!! *Hurriedly clicks it*

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Yeah. Or pull a really new one; everyone knows that airport restrooms are where it's happening these days. XD

It's short, but as a rule Dual = good stuff. As authors, we are both pushers and the hooked. And the worst part is, we can't even do our own stuff.

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Airport restrooms? TOTALLY. I mean, they give you the huge rooms and stalls for, lyk, a REASON, dude. TOTALLY.

(*Snickers*)

Are you kidding? Dual=AWESOME stuff. I LOVE her work; she's so awesome! :D She made this one really yummy Zemyx fic; normally i dislike using the term "yummy" when not applied to food, but it fit it very well right then. x3

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And it's privacy! after all, when you go into a public restroom, the first thing you think of is "private", not "public"!

XD I'm not a huge Zemyx fan - it's a good costar pairing, but I loves me my AkuRoku and SoRiku. Right now I have to say that my favorite fic by her is currently SGW, although Everything Nice holds a special place in my censored heart for making me love crossdressing!Roxas and giving me the butter knife line. And Desiderata made me sad and happy in so many ways, even though the perspective could have used some work. It's really more of a piece to be read aloud in classic story-telling tradition rather than something for reading.

I so have to finish putting together my recs list... it's too hard to keep track of this stuff in my head. And a list of author links to click regularly would be niiiiiice...

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*Grins* I probably like Zemyx as much as AkuRoku (why is it called AkuRoku, anyway?) and SoRi or RiSo. *Shrugs* I just love pairings. *Laughs*

Dude, crossdressing people is just FUN. xD I frequently actually do dress and act like a guy; it's quite a lot of fun, to see people's reactions. *Snickers* And, it's comfortable. :)

What's a recs list?

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AkuRoku came from the Japanese pronunciations of their names. Akuseru and Rokusasu. I guess AxRox didn't sound right.

I normally like crossdressing fics when they're in character (hard to find), but I didn't think Roxas was one of those who could pull it off in-character. XD Now I adore it. (pinches his cheeks) He's so butch. :D

Recommendations = recs. It's a list of stories and writers that are highly recommended. I have one in-progress on my harddrive, but I never work on it and a lot of the links are out of date. (is bad)

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Ah. That makes sense, yes. Well, I suppose you could've said Axas, or something. *ROlls eyes* Heh. But it sounds much better as AkuRoku. Thank you for clearing that up for me. :)

Aye, he is. In-character fics are always the most interesting; thing is, everyone's perception of the characters are slightly different, so, naturally, there's only a basic on what's actually in-character. But extreme OOC-ness is hilarious at times. Sometimes. With the right fic. *Chuckles*

Ah. I don't think I'd ever make a recs list. I've read too many fanfiction, and I seem very lucky--I often get good ones. Of course, I search quite a bit, but I don't give up reading fanfiction until I find one really good one per day of fanfiction-y-ness. Does that make sense to you? it does to me, but then, I know what I'm talking about. ^^;

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I really hate the way online life just grinds to a stop on weekends... even weekends before Spring Break. x.x Sorry for the lateness.

Extreme OOC has its place, of course. Mostly in fluff fics and crack, but occasionally an author can own it and make it work with plot (gaspshock). (Such as Riku in I Would Know You by dark ki [hinthintpimppimp])

lol Well, I want to do it mostly for my own uses. I count my highly-rated fics as ones I'll go back to later and flip through again because they're that good. (Rule of thumb: if I remember it easily months later, I'll probably rec it, unless it's just that bad.) Plus it would be nice for other people - some fandoms (KH, Furuba, etc) don't have very many rec lists... and some are preciously low on good fic that's not hugely recognized. DisOrganization (http://www.fanfiction.net/s/2911269/1/), for example, doesn't get pimped as the crack it is nearly enough, and maybe if Twelve For Eight (http://lostscore.livejournal.com/tag/twelve+for+eight) was better-known, the author would finish it damnit!

I think I'm done with the pimping. For now. :3

I envy your reading time. *sigh* Damn work. (muttergrumble) Even spring break isn't safe. My favorites tend to be chaptered. But it's hard to find good epics. Where oh where have all the Rhyssens gone? (pout)

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I wouldn't know....my online life is basically the same always.... My spring break isn't until April 7th. *Whimpers* APRIL! Ugh. Actually....*Blinks* You know, if all works out....

DUDE, I JUST REALIZED THAT MEANS I'M GONNA BE IN WASHINGTON FOR MY BEST FRIEND'S BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!! *Cheers wildly*

*Grins* Yes, I've read I Would Know You. Not in a while, but I've read dark ki's fics. :)

Done pimping, finally. Ah, good. *Smiles* Don't worry, I'll check them out. I always do. ;)

Don't envy my reading time. Most of the time it's because I'm too sick to go do other fun things, or physically unable to do so. *Grimaces* Even I can get sick of reading, although it's fair rare. I've been sick so much now and all, that I finished over 800 pages worth of reading yesterday. D: just YESTERDAY!!!! THe total was somewhere around 900-1000 pages, I think. not brand new books; DEFINITELY not. Those take me a good three-to-four times longer then normal for me to finish. *Laughs* But both good books, nonetheless.
Yesterday i felt awful. Had a headache, too. So it was read with a headache until my eyes burned and I had to close them long enough that I fell asleep (something I do often, with my insomnia...), or, wait until I threw up. *Grimaces* Dang, I felt horrendous yesterday.

Off to take a look at those fics. :D

Oh--we had FCAT Reading today. *Snickers* We all know that's "gravy" for me! *Giggles* I didn't get the expression until da explained it for me....*Sheepish*

And what's Rhyssens?

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I'm online constantly at work.. and home is dial-up. So I only get on in the evenings, when my most coherent response will probably revolve around sleep. (headdesk)

Dark Ki is amazing. I just wish she'd post more. I'm not sure I like the way the sequel is going though, mostly because it seems likely to include lots of angst, and I'm not an angst-reader, really.

Wow. Just... wow. ;-; That must suck so hugely. Feeling better?

FCAT... that's the Florida Statewide, ne? We had an AZ statewide, but I literally missed it as a requirement by a year, thank goodness. It was so tough, only half the teachers could pass it. o.o! I think I did pass, but I'm really not sure...

Rhyssen is the author of Irresistible Poison, an incredibly popular multi-chaptered HP fic. Rhyssens are what I call authors who still do that kind of epic, and do them well. One-shots are so easy to turn out, it seems... But epic fics are completely worth digging for.

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Home....is....dial-up. You poor, poor thing!!!
All of your responses, more or less, are coherent to me. *COnfused*
Wait. No--I'm not confused about your response, i'm confused about you thinking your responses are not coherent unless-----argh, you get the idea!!!
*MY turn to headdesk...*

I love reading angst. Just so long as there's something else too, and it isn't pure angst.

Feeling better? Well, to be honest...no, not really. *Sighs* Oh well. I'll feel better...whenever I feel better. We had FCAT this last week. I was sick the whole time through. I came to school, did the fcat, went to first period, got placed on the attendance, and left. Every day except Friday. XD Monday I almost went the whole day (not fcat, again, ditto friday) but I left during lunch.

Yeah, that's the florda statewide, I suppose.

That's true. One-shots are easy to turn out (*Knows because she's too lazy to attempt any good chaptered fic besides one everyone now and again*), but epic fics are....you know...epic.

I think that's why I write poetry so much.

It's so much easier. XD

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Yeah. I live so far out into the boondocks that we can't even get satellite internet cheap, and our lines are too old for DSL. (Even the phone company was shocked that this is possible.) Cable is out of the question, unless we shell out 200k for them to lay lines down to our house.

My responses are coherent because I make a point of not responding when all I can think is "heh... slash..." or "coffee?". That's why you'll occasionally see delays in replies. It means that I've only been able to get online sometime after midnight.

Ssssooooo glad I missed statewides. Srsly. Tests like that just cause so much trouble... (whacks the government)

Awwww... (pats) I wish I could help, but "stay home and rest" isn't an option when you're at your limit of absences, and really not an option when there's a statewide going around. :/ Tight spot.

I'd love to write epic. I think a lot of authors secretly have a dream of sitting at the keyboard and waking up to find 200 pages at their fingertips and the coffee still warm. Somehow, I don't think that's how it happens. XD But I still try. (pokes at her genderswitch!HP)

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That's POSSIBLE? XD That's HILARIOUS! Hahahahaaaaaa. 200k.... Yeah, I'll suffer the bad internet. I'd rather have my 200k, thanks.

"heh... slash..."
. . .
XD XD XD XD XD Niiiiiiice. *Snickers* I don't mind delays in replies. :) Just getting them, even now and again, is nice. I get to relax a bit.
You don't realize how tense and stressed you are, when even strangers start saying, "Sheesh, don't you ever just relax every once in awhile?!" And you're like, "....Relaxing? What's that?"
*Rolls eyes and grins* That'sa meeeee.

Tests like that are huge pains. I don't believe in tests, for one matter, so I despise taking them. Even though, ironically, the more important they are the better I do...lol......Which, I suppose, is a darned good thing. :3
I think I'll grow up to protest tests. Get rid of them. THey're unfair and disgustingly stressful, bleeeeeh.

Trust me. I used up my number of absences last quarter. 3 excused, and 9 unexcused, absences. That's over 10, and minus 10 points per class per grade average in said class, for each unexcused.
What a wonderful life I leaaaaad!

Yeah....you know, I'd never dreamed of that before....and now that you've mentioned it, I'll probably be doing it. x3 That sounds like a good short story concept, actually, haha....

That reminds me. I have this habit of getting REALLY creative during the school year; I just do. (I'm "brilliantly, ridiculously, and unfairly" intelligent, to quote more then one person (LOL XD), and yet, academics are just NOT my thing. Now THAT'S unfair! *Sniffs unhappily*) So I get creative, instead... and doodle a LOT. I come up with some pretty awesome things, too. :D Heehee. My doodles usually turn out better then my actual drawings. *Smirks proudly* Funnier/cuter, too....
So anyway; I drew this random thing because I was trying to draw a vulpix, and the snout looked all wrong, so I started fidgeting with it... and soon I had this weird dog/rabbit crossbreed, and I'm calling it the "Dreaded Drabbit" (I considered Drobbit, but I thought they might rhyme it unfairly with hobbit....) and making up all these hilarious short stories and such. He'll be, like, a mix between the new winnie-the-pooh, and the boogie man. XD

As a kid, when I first heard about the boogie man, I thought he was a random dude who liked to play funky music and boogie all night long (badly).

When my brother opened his mouth to explain about the "Actual" boogie man, my mom smacked him upside the head and towed him out of the room. He tells me now that she threatened to castrate him if he started scaring me with stories again. He never said a word. XD

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20+ years in practically swamp makes almost any home-degradation possible, it seems. Re regularly lose our phone connection because of rain, and the last time we had a major storm I had to crawl under the house to jiggle some wires back into place. MUD.

lol Then you should relax more. XD Take a bath or whatever it is you do to veg. (May I suggest anime? Nothing says mindless like an episode of shoujo.)

*whistle* How do they identify unexcused? Is it just a lack of parental call-in, or no doctor's note...? When I was in school it was the parents call. Still, 12 is a lot for a 16 week semester!

XD YOU MUST POST OF THE DRABBIT. (dies laughing) Little illustrated doodles like a picture book! OMG, that would be great!

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You had to crawl under the house?! Dear god, I feel for you. I had to do similar things in Washington, because I was the smallest and most flexible/nimble....they totally ignored my utter hatred for insects and all the insects living down there. *Shudders* I made darned sure I got rewarded, though. I wouldn't stop freaking out and screaming and throwing a huge temper tantrum until I got 10 bucks, a new stuffed animal, some major comfort foods (mac and cheese, ice cream (a treat at the time; my lactose intolerance was worse back then), toast with butter and apple butter, and hot cocoa, haha. what a combo.), and the promise to take me to an amusement park, AND a bookstore to get a new book, AND the craft store to buy some new materials and paints.
I milked it for all it was worth.
THey never asked me to do it again. *Smirks*

Relax? What is this relaxation you speak of? I know not of this word!
Duuuuude, baths, like, DON'T happen at this house. *Glowers darkly* We have this huuuuuge tub, and....and....NOT ENOUGH HOT WATER TO FILL IT. How can this BE?! And it's my parents bathroom, which isn't so bad really except tat the door is a sliding door and I'm paranoid about it, and the stupid tub never fills up because there isn't a big enough tank to heat water in this freakin' house! ARGH! Big house, not much hot water. ARRGHHHH. baths are my relaxing thing; without baths, I do not relax; without baths, I have no way to relieve stress. Not kidding; I adore the things that much.

*Nods* Aye, if the parent doesn't call in before 10 am. then it's an unexcused absence. There were so many people absent last friday (good friday, and they held school--what were they THINKING?!) and such issues with the subs and classes and all that that they finally just gave an excused absence to everyone absent. Which was nice of them, but, still. And, aye, 12 is a lot in a 16 week semester, but, um, that was just the last QUARTER. Who knows how many I'll get this last quarter. *Grimaces*

You'd....actually want to see the doodles and stories? *Blinks* Or at least the doodles; I'm not sure how I want the stories to come out, lol. There are actually two versions to the Dreaded Drabbit -- one that's more PG and kid-safe, and one that's more NC-17 rated and definitely dear god NOT AT ALL kid-safe. *Snickers* Both of them are hilarious. Oh dear god, but the NC-17 one is...is....PRICELESS. *Falls over laughing* And he just looks like a grumpy ol' weird thing that belongs in the hundred acre wood (not quite, but he reminds you of it), so it's...dear good, the image. I think I might post the picture I drew that got the while thing started. it's just a doodle, but my doodles usually turn out pretty cool...I like it, at least. :) Yeah, I think I will post the little image that got the whole thing started. Just so you can see.....friends-only post, because otherwise ANYONE can steal it. *Makes face*

THat reminds me... I drew a guy today, that LOOKS like a male, AND is bald, AND looks good bald, AND is totally evil.

Chyah.

I'm just that good.

......*Ignores the fact that it's only the neck-up*

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I don't mind the small squirmy things too badly, it was wet and cold and it's possible to get stuck under there. Very much not where I wanted to be. And there's no avoiding it either, since no one else in the house can or will do it. -.-;

Oh geez. DO WANT. Our tubs are tinysauce! I'd never leave if I had a big tub. Well, until the water got cold, but the wonderful thing is that the water re-heats eventually! Ah, bliss. A drink, a bath, some chocolate and a good book. That's the life.

And what if you're being rushed to the emergency room or something? They're supposed to pause and call the school, I suppose. Please. That makes very little sense.

YAY Art. It makes me want to draw. o.o; Which probably won't happen. (mutter) So you must draw in my stead. Please?

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It take sforever in our house, and that door just irks me. I can';t relax right in it, which sucks, because my reaction upon first seeing the tub was somewhere along the lines of "HOMGITSSOHUGEHOMGHOMGHOMGAHGLEGADAEGHDSAL;JDFGAHLHFG!"
After registering the size, my brain went on the fritz for a short while. THen I begged my mom to buy the house.
Oooooh, how I REGRET that...!

No. *shakes head* They have until 10, so really, supposedly, you should have the mind to call, no matter what. But, hey. It's their way of knowing you aren't playing truant, which is better then some ways.

*Laughs* yes, yay art! Why won't you draw? I'd love to see. :D I bet you're reeeeaaaally talented, unlike me. x3 But sure, I'll draw....if I feel like it, lol.

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Well, a water heater is relatively easy to replace, I should think. Expensive, but HEY, if you bought it anyways, right? Might as well improve it if you can.

But a parents call should be enough, right? Honestly, if you play hookey and your parents cover for you, that's between you and them. Schools are so weird. On one hand, they don't have enough power over students. On the other, too much. *sigh*

^^;; I love to draw, but it's a "sit down and work on it" thing for almost anything. I can't even really doodle without trying to turn it into something. That being said, I need a serious stretch of free time with no interruptions in order to do anything artsy. I can't even type for five minutes without an interruption, so... yeah. if you really want, Here's the sort-of illustration for Marble Keyblade. It didn't really happen, but it's concept art. (http://tsukinofaerii.livejournal.com/69774.html)

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Expensive, exactly. We don't have the money to replace it, and besides, it'd be more of a pure luxury thing, anyways. The one we have works fine for everything else, so....*Shrugs and sighs wistfully*

"Sit down and work on it", eh? Heh. Not necessarily, but yeah, pretty much. I mean, me, I've never had the patience to sit still or anything; but because of my love of arts, crafts, and dancing, I've trained myself to be very still for usually, however long I need. (dancing, long story.) However, I usually just shirt everything to the floor, and then change position whenever I want, put on some music to distract me--or a movie--and proceed to move about however much I like.
I can also do art whilst walking, or in a car, or something like that. I've had a looooot of practice, lol.
Yeah....doodles are both nothing, and always something. My doodles turn out better then my drawings, because I'm not trying for perfection, and failing, and being dissatisfied with it. :D

Huh. *Tilts head and considers picture thoughtfully* That would have been interesting to read. I like the way Sora is partly transparent; at first I was a tad confused, thinking he wasn't finished, and then I remembered the story. *Laughs* But yeah yeah, see? You're good at art. Or at least, I think so. ^^;

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If it works for everything else... yeah, unnecessary expense. *sigh* Which sucks, but I know how budgets go.

XD I wish I could do that. I've got a bazillion ideas in my head for art, but it takes me hours just to get the concept sketch out. Maybe it's OCD, but I'm really not good as accepting anything less than my best, even for quick doodles.

I'm still thinking about writing it one day, but it really would have thrown off the whole air of the piece. :\ The only other two pieces I've put up are for Shattenjagger - a Vampire Sora and a Zombie Riku. (Someone in the world has a tattoo of Zombie Riku on his back. o-o! It is awesomeness.) I really, really need to break my habit of aiming for perfect, and also need to get back into the flow of drawing.... but that's not going to happen with the way my homelife is. *sigh*

^^; Thank you. I never think I'm very good (there's so many peope out there who are better - including my mother! D=), but everyone thinks that~! So I'm not a Speshul Snoeflaek after all.