I don't wanna grow up, I'm an over-sized kid....

[tsukinofaerii]

Avoiding work again. Well, I'm supposed to be making tutorial handouts of frequent issues as busy work. Guh. Pain. And the only things I can think of that students have repeated issues with are things like "Downloading a File" and "E-mailing Your Teacher". Not things I want to actually sit down and think out the steps to. (Seriously - most of the issues are so simple that it's hard for me to remember how they're done!)

Looking back over the last few entries, I'm kind of starting to wonder if work is dragging me away from Fandom. o.o My recent posts have been more politics (LJ and RL) and memes than my usual randomness. Or family complaints, though those still happen. I haven't even written a fic lately. Well, I haven't posted a fic lately, mostly because I reached a new low in my writing and am not really sure I want to attach my name to it. (sweatdrop) And I don't mean low as in style or grammar. It's all content. Scary content. o.o; And yaoi has been non-existent, possibly because most of my posting is from work, and while no one's looking over my shoulder I'm kind of hesitant to accidentally hit something NSFW at the exact wrong moment.

Am I growing up?

NOOOOOOOOOO~!

Someone reassure me that I'm immature and obsessed? Please?

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I don't mind the small squirmy things too badly, it was wet and cold and it's possible to get stuck under there. Very much not where I wanted to be. And there's no avoiding it either, since no one else in the house can or will do it. -.-;

Oh geez. DO WANT. Our tubs are tinysauce! I'd never leave if I had a big tub. Well, until the water got cold, but the wonderful thing is that the water re-heats eventually! Ah, bliss. A drink, a bath, some chocolate and a good book. That's the life.

And what if you're being rushed to the emergency room or something? They're supposed to pause and call the school, I suppose. Please. That makes very little sense.

YAY Art. It makes me want to draw. o.o; Which probably won't happen. (mutter) So you must draw in my stead. Please?

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It take sforever in our house, and that door just irks me. I can';t relax right in it, which sucks, because my reaction upon first seeing the tub was somewhere along the lines of "HOMGITSSOHUGEHOMGHOMGHOMGAHGLEGADAEGHDSAL;JDFGAHLHFG!"
After registering the size, my brain went on the fritz for a short while. THen I begged my mom to buy the house.
Oooooh, how I REGRET that...!

No. *shakes head* They have until 10, so really, supposedly, you should have the mind to call, no matter what. But, hey. It's their way of knowing you aren't playing truant, which is better then some ways.

*Laughs* yes, yay art! Why won't you draw? I'd love to see. :D I bet you're reeeeaaaally talented, unlike me. x3 But sure, I'll draw....if I feel like it, lol.

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Well, a water heater is relatively easy to replace, I should think. Expensive, but HEY, if you bought it anyways, right? Might as well improve it if you can.

But a parents call should be enough, right? Honestly, if you play hookey and your parents cover for you, that's between you and them. Schools are so weird. On one hand, they don't have enough power over students. On the other, too much. *sigh*

^^;; I love to draw, but it's a "sit down and work on it" thing for almost anything. I can't even really doodle without trying to turn it into something. That being said, I need a serious stretch of free time with no interruptions in order to do anything artsy. I can't even type for five minutes without an interruption, so... yeah. if you really want, Here's the sort-of illustration for Marble Keyblade. It didn't really happen, but it's concept art. (http://tsukinofaerii.livejournal.com/69774.html)

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Expensive, exactly. We don't have the money to replace it, and besides, it'd be more of a pure luxury thing, anyways. The one we have works fine for everything else, so....*Shrugs and sighs wistfully*

"Sit down and work on it", eh? Heh. Not necessarily, but yeah, pretty much. I mean, me, I've never had the patience to sit still or anything; but because of my love of arts, crafts, and dancing, I've trained myself to be very still for usually, however long I need. (dancing, long story.) However, I usually just shirt everything to the floor, and then change position whenever I want, put on some music to distract me--or a movie--and proceed to move about however much I like.
I can also do art whilst walking, or in a car, or something like that. I've had a looooot of practice, lol.
Yeah....doodles are both nothing, and always something. My doodles turn out better then my drawings, because I'm not trying for perfection, and failing, and being dissatisfied with it. :D

Huh. *Tilts head and considers picture thoughtfully* That would have been interesting to read. I like the way Sora is partly transparent; at first I was a tad confused, thinking he wasn't finished, and then I remembered the story. *Laughs* But yeah yeah, see? You're good at art. Or at least, I think so. ^^;

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If it works for everything else... yeah, unnecessary expense. *sigh* Which sucks, but I know how budgets go.

XD I wish I could do that. I've got a bazillion ideas in my head for art, but it takes me hours just to get the concept sketch out. Maybe it's OCD, but I'm really not good as accepting anything less than my best, even for quick doodles.

I'm still thinking about writing it one day, but it really would have thrown off the whole air of the piece. :\ The only other two pieces I've put up are for Shattenjagger - a Vampire Sora and a Zombie Riku. (Someone in the world has a tattoo of Zombie Riku on his back. o-o! It is awesomeness.) I really, really need to break my habit of aiming for perfect, and also need to get back into the flow of drawing.... but that's not going to happen with the way my homelife is. *sigh*

^^; Thank you. I never think I'm very good (there's so many peope out there who are better - including my mother! D=), but everyone thinks that~! So I'm not a Speshul Snoeflaek after all.

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My head is busting with ideas. *Whimpers* Unfortunately, I can never get the ideas right on the paper. x.x I need to take more art classes. I've taken only a couple, and those were all at least 4 or more years ago. I need heeeeeelp, lol. I have a minor case of OCD, but years of discipline have really helped with that. :) I can control myself, usually. My friends love it, however. I can come over and do their chores for them. *Snickers* Give me money and I'll even go grocery shopping for them, haha.

Someone has a tattoo of zombie riku....dude, that's awesome. Although, sorry, but the idea of vampire riku is just a little cooler....but that's just my opinion. ^^;

let me tell you something: If you want it badly enough, just go do it already, because you're the only one stopping you.
Like I always complained about how my writing and drawing and stuff was never in the styles I wanted. FInally, a couple nights ago, I got fed up with all my own complaining about it, and started just DOING it. Sure it's hard to actually try it, but it was a lot easier then I thought. Or just start bringing random paper with you and start doodling all over it. Doodling induces creativity; it's a marvelous thing. Dreaded Drabbit came from it, along with some of my very best drawings. One of a mermaid came out stunning, in my opinion; I can't believe I actually drew it. *laughs* (Now if only I could get the face right....two different faces would be perfect on her, both give it completely different feels, and I'm having trouble with BOTH. So she's faceless! XD)

Oh, but you are a VERY Speshul Snoeflaek!!! Everyone is; no design is alike to another! SOme are more detailed, some are most delicate; and some are so breathtaking that you hate to love it, but can't help it. *Smiles* (Yes, that's original. Something cheesy lie that just HAD to come from me. x3) But you're a VERY speshul Snoeflaek!!! :Glomps: You're a FANTASTIC writer! I mean, seriously. i was going over some of your stuff again and was all, "....I forgot how amazing hse is...O_O;" XD

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My ideas tend to come in long bursts of rambling, so I don't have that issue. Though I have to say that the single art class I've taken really helped me think of color and composition in new ways. But considering that my mother rocks my artistic socks and she'd never had an art class before the one we shared, it's pretty obviously not necessary.

XD No one has the Vampire Sora that goes with Zombie Riku yet. I think that Dark Ki's Shattenjagger Riku is just so sad... what a horrible way to die and keep going. ;-; That was pretty much what started that picture. I wanted to capture the broken beautiful doll look of him that I have somewhere in my head. I'm not sure if I succeeded, but I'm still pretty happy with what came from the effort.

XD I know I'm really the only one stopping me, but I honestly don't feel as if I produce anything I'm glad to label as my own. ^^; Like I said, I'm picky. The only way to get around it is to just do it, but the level of annoyance... *sigh* If I could just go one night without moving every five minutes because someone wants water or someone else forgot to vacuum and I now have to do it... Eh, don't mine me. I'm just fighting familial annoyance right now.

XD Yeah, but when everyone is a Speshul Snoeflaek, being a Speshul Snoeflaek isn't Speshul anymore.

(blush) Thank you. ^^;; You wouldn't believe the amount of fics I have in my "Dead and Gone" folder. I mean, sheesh, I even have an obligatory un-finished Shinigami!Duo GW Arc. @.@ (whaps herself) One of my major goals is to start finishing what I write!

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Well, of course it isn't NECESSARY, not by a long stretch. But they can help you to at least learn new things. *Shrugs*

You started 3 of the paragraphs with XD. *Snickers*
I could TRY to write Vamp!So with Zomb!Ri, but it might be off in a couple ways, considering I caught glimpses of 28 Weeks Later today during bio...*Doubtful of her own abilities* But attempting it may be....er....interesting. Especially because I know so very little of Zombies. x3

Familial annoyance. I just got OUT of it; so I'm trying to take a while to get back INTO it, lol. It's so....er...annoying, lol.

Ah, but see, Speshul Snoeflaek, everyone else spells it special snowflake. isn't that...lyk...so UNORIGINAL, ya? So you IS a very very SPESHUL SNOEFLAEK, and the only of it's kind!!! :glomp:
Sorry. I'm in a great mood. *Grins gleefully*

*Grins sheepishly* Eh. I love complimenting people. That's why my friends love me -- I'll compliment them, but only if I honestly believe what i'm saying. I try NOT to lie to friends. ^^
Speaking of friends, I'VE GAINED TWO! *Cheers wildly* Heehee. Making new friends is a very, very speshul thing for me indeed. ^^;
......
One of the friends is ze Crush. 'Member him? Yeah. And thanks, in large part, to my history teacher, he and I are friiiieeeends nooooooooow. I was right, he IS fun to have as a friend. ^^

One of my goals is to finish what I'm writing... When I told Z (zack) that that was why I wrote poetry, because it could be short and finished, because I was so lazy, he stared at me, and exclaimed in disbelief, "You mean, you're lazy?! But you always do so much in class! You never sleep, or just sit there--you always read, or listen to music, or--or something!!"
And I said, smirking proudly, "Zack, my laziness could quite easily match yours." And he still doesn't believe me. ^^; Haha. He's a veeeery lazy person. It's like Shikamaru all over again...*Snickers*

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(sweatdrop) I think it's my new favorite emoticon. It just expresses so much... And I go into "squealing happy" mode easily.

Hmmm... I don't think there's really any non-disgusting way to write Zombie!anything. The major difference between vampires and zombies visually is usually the amount of rot. Blech. x-X But it might make for a good squick-fic?

YAY new friends! Especially YAY for new friends who are also crushes. :D

XD He has no concept of lazy. There's "vegetable lazy" and "avoiding stuff" lazy. Clearly you self-identify as the latter. This is good - now that you've admitted the problem, you can wipe out those responsible tendencies and get on with true loafing.

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x3 Haha, I could see you doing that...so, so easily, lol.

"The major difference between vampires and zombies visually is usually the amount of rot."
.....I'm definitely saving THAT line, hahahahaaaaaaaaa....lol. I don't like zombies. Mainly because I don't know much about them, but, still. :)
Haha, I managed to cut myself 6 times yesterday. I swear, I didn't mean to.....But yesterday I kept going, "Watch it! Ouch! Hey, that hurts! OW, I said OWWWWW!"
^^; Poor, poor me, lol.
I have no idea how I managed to cut myself so many times. O_O Must be my inner emo. (My friends all agree, I'm definitely emo. And I'm thinking, "Wtf, wait a minute, WHEN DID I BECOME EMO?!" And Edgar said, "Somewhere around 2004. Definitely, a Tuesday, definitely. Around 3:51 pm." And I staaaaared at him.
Know why?
2004, on a Tuesday, my flight from WA to FL happened. At 3:51 pm, my flight landed.
I am now thoroughly wary of him. XD)

Hey hey hey, watch it. *Scowls* I always make friends with my crushes, it's inevitable. *Shrugs*
But don't go teasing me about crushes. I can't stand the stupid things. *Glares at crush* Er.....not my ACTUAL crush, that is. I put pictures/colors to each emotion/most words, and the one for "crush" is a rather garish mixture of gilt gold and garish pink. *Shudders*

Avoiding stuff lazy. Well, yes, I do that too. XD But I can be quite "vegetable lazy" when I want to, hahaha.
Trust me, he's a mix between the two.....leaning heavily on vegetable lazy. XD

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Who, moi? :D

Mm... I picked up the Zombie Survival Handbook a few years ago. It's clearly resident evil type of zombie (virus, not magic), but still provides all sorts of ideas. oO; Go figs.

O-O XD FLORIDA MADE YOU EMO. I can SO see that happening. The mix of old people and college students is enough to make anyone think longingly of the oblivion of ALMOST ANY OTHER STATE.

But you see, it's my JOB to tease you about crushes. Somehow. I'll figure out the logic to it later. ¬¬ But any word colored like a Bishoujo Senshi Sailormoon transformation sequence is suspect.

But vegetable lazy isn't something you can "lean toward". Leaning implies still being upright. You either are (in which case, you sprawl on top of it) or you aren't. (shakes her head) He must work on his Mad Lazy Skillz.

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Oui, tu. XD Lol.

Zombie Survival Handbook?! *Snickers* Dude, that's funny. If it was a virus, I'd probably catch it. *Rolls eyes* Bleehhhhh.

OMG FLORIDA MADE ME EMO, IT DID, IT DIIIIID! XD Haha. I even like the clothes most emo's wear. *Sncikers* THat's fuuuunnnyyyyyyyy.

Why is it YOUR job? Sheesh. *Scowls* And, if you follow your logic, I most likely could never tease you about YOUR crushes, should you get one and choose to share with me (oh horror's above!). Which means, naturally: if you continue teasing me, I will manage to find out some little detail which you never wanted me to find out, and will tease you mercilessly about it.

I knew you'd say that; i just KNEW it.
But you see, he's only "leaning" towards it because I'm grasping his arm and holding him up. Of course, i'm slipping, so he's very slowly leaning more and more towards vegetabl--

*CRASH!*

...

Too late.

He's a veggie.

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What was funniest about the book was it's utter seriousness. It reminded me of all those "survive Y2K" handbooks that were going around in the late 90s. In retrospect, they're hilarious because we know they're never going to happen, but at the same time they're very full of themselves because their writers were so positive that they'd be needed. Fortunately, the virus had to be caught by being bitten, in classic sci-fi zombie format, so unless you're good at getting captured and/or eaten by the undead, you'd probably be fairly safe.

It's my job because someone has to do it. :3 And you're more than welcome to tease me about crushes as soon as I get one. Right now my lovelife is sadly dead. Seriously. x.x I read an article on Sunday about how rats (Chinese Astrology, and coincidentally me) tend to fall hard when they fall. Great. Just what I need, ne?

XD Does he sing and dance on a pirate ship? If he does, videotape and send to Veggie Tales.

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*Snickers* I am now mentally thanking m parents for having me born in the 90's, and not the 80's....for the first time in my entire life. I never would've wanted to see all those books. XD Sheesh, those would be hilarious. I so have to read them.

*Laughs* Fall hard when they fall, eh?
Hate to break it to you, but, uh, gravity kinda does that.
Rats are a little more affected by gravity. *nods wisely*
....At least in the astrology world. *Smirks*
Me, I'm a monkey. XD And I love monkey's, so, eh...*Shrugs* I don't know much about my Chinese astrology....I mean, I've looked things up -- what year, time of day, etc -- and gotten a freakishly accurate thing. It was hilarious, I was reading and reading, and was thinking, "WTF HOW DO THESE PEOPLE KNOW ME?! AHHHHH!!!!!!!! *Screams in shock/horror/whatever*
Lol.

*Grins* Nope, sorry. No singing and dancing on a pirate ship.
Although, I've heard him sing a bit -- it's a long, slightly funny story --, and dang can he SING! O_O For someone with an average voice -- no, correction; for a male with an average voice (on the scale it's average, notes and all), he has a surprisingly big range. O_O I was shocked. And not only that, he doesn't sound horrible doing it.
So, he sings. Doesn't dance. And definitely not on a pirate ship; just in history class. *Snickers*

Gotta go wake up Greg, mah behst friend.... apparently I've takent he place of his alarm clock.
"Wait--you want me to keep waking you up until school ends? So what, I'll just call you every morning at 6 am?"
"Yeah, pretty much."
"...Why?"
"I'm less likely to throw you against a wall."
"Interesting word choice."
"...Shit. I have no idea what to say."
"Since when does that happen?!"
"...Since now, apparently..."
"Wow. Granted you're always kind've speechless when I make a perverted comment (of any kind), but never have you actually said that you have no idea what t say."
"I'm a unique guy, what can I say?"
"Repetitive much?"

And so on, and so forth. He now has the habit of calling me at around 9:30 pm every night. XD

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I never really bought into the whole Y2K thing, so it was kind of funny to watch go down. XD Anyone with two licks of common sense and an ounce of computer knowledge knew it wasn't going to happen, but in the 90s computers were still rare dealies fir a lot of people.

Believe it or not, you can still find Y2K books in some bookstores. XD Priceless.

XD I have that same exact problem with Chinese astrology. There's always this "ASDFG;LKJH CREEPY ACCURATE" moment that I just never really get over. Western astrology does that sometimes too, but it's not nearly as accurate in generalizations. (I suppose it's practice? The Chinese have been at it since Western culture was still trying to figure out this civilization thing.)

XD How lazy can a guy get, that he needs a friend to call and wake him up? MASSIVE fail.

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*Grins* Dude, they still have a few of those things around? Y2K......I am NEVER looking it up. or maybe I should, just for laughs.

Then again, my bio teacher lent my The Hitch-hiker's Guide to the Galaxy today, and I am basically thinking this the entire time I'm reading it: ". . .". Really. There's not much of a thought process going on. It's a parody on books....now how'd THAT happen? XD

*Laughs* Actually, I don't mind it, really, since i'm waking up at 4:50 every morning. So it isn't like I have to worry about being up....XD
But I've had a crush on him since, like, almost three years ago (l...o....l....), and I have to thank god repeatedly for my ability to not be rendered to a typical teen with a crush whenever we're hanging together. *Feels extreme disgust for most teens...especially most teens with crushes* They always think they're in love, ugh.

Haha, he even knows I have a crush on him. It's quite funny. He's the one where our friendship is practically one big flirting fest. *Snickers* You must admit, it's hilarious.

Speaking of crushes...

Earlier today, in 4th period, I was reading my book (wow, never find me doing that, huh), and as it's a sub for two dif classes that were merged into one due to a lack of subs (both classes were relatively small), everyone's quite relaxed and chatting quietly but animatedly, and life goes on, etc.
So I'm sitting right next to the pencil sharpener (It was in a corner; wow, how....original, lol), and this dude has come over to sharpen his pencil (he'd been working on some homework for his next class). So when he's finished, he taps me gently with his pencil, and when I look up, has the time to say, "Hey, my friend Tyrique has this HUGE crush on you--"

Before the sub barks, "Tyrique, come here! Now, your teacher said you had some homework you were supposed to turn in today, even if she isn't here...."

And boy, did that guy scurry off to grab his homework. I think I even saw a blush. *Sniggers*

...What the HELL is with people and randomly confessing to me lately?! Sheesh! *Annoyed* Honestly!

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Hitch-Hiker's guide is.. unique. I think it's one of the first books in SciFi that made fun of its own genre. That's always a cheerful way to kick off a legend. ^_^

I think the problem with teens is that the brain hasn't finished developing. Add that to the old maxim that emotion can make people stupid and... bad mix. You're very much to be sensible.

XD Oh that poor boy!

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I was grumbling about it in 5th period (it being annoying) and writing it down so I could just get it out of my head. Well, you remember Edgar, right? You know, Edgar Allen Poe III. Yeah, the funny dude.

Well, normally he's quite respectful of me. He respects my intellect/intelligence, and the fact that I'm his 'senpai' (upperclassman)--I'm the only sophomore in the entire class of freshman, although he is a year older than me.
But today, he decides to grab my paper, read it (silently; he would never have the gall to read it aloud), and started laughing. I stared at him--more like glowered for having read it in the first place--and he grinned at me. "See, see! That's why Senpai's getting them all of the sudden! You probably would've gotten them all year, but you've softened up by now."

I stared at him, confused.

"...Well, earlier in the year you practically incinerated anything that dared come near you. You really didn't have a clue what to do, haha. But lately you've loosened up, and seem to let things--like teenage stupidity--go without being scorned...uh...at least not openly. So people feel it's safe to approach you."

still cofnused, and now, 'get-on-with-it.'

"Uh....well, you had a couple guys approach you at the beginning of the year, right?" I nod. "Yeah. You were a new sophomore, and you were always reading, drawing, or doing work - I can't remember a single time I saw you speak up, except in class, and even then was pretty rare. Well...thats bound to get some attention, right? Right. That was before they realized that if they approached you, you'd give them a death glare, and ignore them."

Still confused here, and now getting impatient.

Edgar blinked. "Senpaiiii, come on. You're smart, you get it, right?" I shook my head.
Edgar grinned. And promptly chorused happily, "SENPAI'S BEAUTIFUUULLLL!" All the while giving me this proud grin like he didn't know how I could've missed such an obvious fact.

Of course, he has a naturally loud voice that carries quite well; he'd do well with stage.

And, of course, we also had a mixed class; a lot of teachers were absent today, and they had to split up classes and take them to dif rooms. So our class was filled, pretty much, with only a couple empty seats.

And everyone heard him say it.

And I'm the only "senpai" in the room.

Insta-silence.
Insta-staring.

And I'm the one to start cracking up first.

I can't help it; I'm holding my stomach, because it hurts from laughing so hard, and I'm barely making any sound by the time I'm half-way finished, because I can't breathe, and I have tears gathering in my eyes from the overload of sudden mirth.

Everyone's joined in with me, even Edgar; and it's at that moment my teacher (Mrs. Garcia) steps in.

"You know, usually it's just parts of the room laughing at the same time. what happened?"And we start all over again, everyone pointed to Edgar and me.

Edgar just grinned proudly. "Senpai's beautiful!" He explained....in a completely non-helpful way.

Which set us off ALL OVER AGAIN.

XD

We were still breaking out in random laughter over it 20 minutes later, when the bell rang.
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"Awwwwwww" is all I have to say. He's such a doll.

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He is. I even considered hugging him, just to see what he'd do. *Snigger* Knowing Edgar, he'd probably hug me back so tightly I'd have trouble breathing. XD

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while I was picking up my stuff and placing it in my bag, someone tapped me on the shoulder.
As it so happened, it was the 'Tyrique' from earlier--I hadn't even noticed him. Not that I usually pay attention to my classmates.)
When I blinked at him, he smiled shyly. "He's--H-he's right, you know." And, face beginning to turn somewhat pink, promptly turned and dashed out the door.

And Edgar witnessed the whole thing, and started cracking up over it all over again.

When I turne to glare at him, he held up his hands. "Yeah, I know I know! But come on, Senpai! That was FUNNY!"
Even I had to smile at that, and agree. "But if you ever say anything like that again, I'll smack you upside the head for it."

He stared at me. "Eh? Why?"
"Because I don't like people telling me I'm beautiful."

And throughout the whole next period, in which was the last period of lunch, and Edgar, Tyrique and I share it, I learned three things:
1) Tyrique has my lunch? And, apparently, blushes easily; all I had to do was glance at him. xD
2) Edgar's like a dog with a bone on some subjects. He declared quite loudly and embarrassingly that it was his mission in the remaining 27 days of school to make me see I was beautiful. THis, of course, prompted jokes, leers, smirks, what have you. Thank god I can be scary when I want to be, or I think it might've been worse. *Grimaces*
3) I'm highly uncomfortable with anyone telling me I'm nice-looking. *Blinks* Nice-looking as in attractive, or anything.

Well, if plans to bother me, I plan to make it hell for him. *Grins ferally*

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1) AW, so cute! It's like a puppy. Come on, give him a biscuit.
2) (snicker) You should probably at least accept what he has to say. He wouldn't say it if he didn't mean it... even if you don't see it.
3) Low self-esteem. *sigh* Same problem. It's so easy to see how pretty others are, but you look at yourself and only see the flaws, ne? I think that's part of the curse of being female and American...

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1) Hmm...I suppose I can be that nice, at least. *Nods decisively and hands the poor kid a biscuit* If it wasn't for the whole fact I'm not the dating type or anything, I'd probably have given him a chance. As it is, I'm feeling guilty. Y-Y He was just too sweet for me to turn down coldly. :(

2) *Laughs* Hey, I don't hit him or glare at him if he says it. I just ignore it. He's so used to getting reactions from me (especially on jokes no one else could possibly get but someone like you and I) that the shock of not getting a reaction from me might kill him. *Snickers*
Not that 'd ever want him killed, of course.
He's too funny for that!

3) Yeah. I can describe myself to someone, read it, and then grimace and start grumbling in my head about how I sound too beautiful. XD Lol. I mean, I've had moments when I thought I was pretty. I've even had moments where I've thought I could be really pretty.
But I've realized that I feel pretty so long as I don't look in a mirror... and thus, I stay away from mirror's, and it actually does help. Heh.

I know. American's; it's all about the media image. *Frowns* Thank god more and more things on the media are leaning toward 'big is beautiful' and all that. Well, big to a point, anyway. Which is what you want it to be. *nodnodnod* We should take some lessons from other countries, lol.

And WOW, but I typed a lot last time...O_O Holy cow. I didn't even really realize it.

[tsukinofaerii.livejournal.com]

(snicker) Let him at least be a friend. Sweet boys are hard to find.

XD Poor Edgar. Kept around only for your sick amusement. (shakes head) At least he seems to be enjoying himself. And there's worse ways to be used. :D (Which he probably wouldn't object to. o.o!)

3) Mmhm, I know exactly how that feels. :| But it helps me to occassionally dress up nice just to remind myself that I can. Those girls who even look nice in their jammies probably spend a fuckton of time primping, not to mention diets and exercise and creams and lotions and... BAH. I can look nice with a half hour of occasional work. It takes them constant effort. After all that rationalization, I feel like I got the better end of the deal.

(snicker) Yeah, I saw it and was like, "... I can't possibly respond to that. oO; SUMMARIZE POWER, I COMMAND THEE!" XD

[blinddeciever.livejournal.com]

*Laughs* Aye, I'd be willing to be his friend. *nods thoughtfully* He seems nice enough.

Yes, I definitely keep him around for my sick amusement. He seems to like making me laugh...I think it's because he can make jokes most don't understand but that I do, and I find them hilarious. ^^; True, there are worse ways to be used...and I agree again. He probably wouldn't object. *Laughs*

I don't like dressing up nice unless I have total reign over how I look and I can dress however I want. However, if I do decide to dress up, I usually look like a nice, polite, rich girl that isn't quite preppy, but isn't quite...anything else, either. At least I look nice, lol.

"SUMMARIZE POWER, I COMMAND THEE!"
Ah, yes. I've missed your funny ways. *Snickers*