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[tsukinofaerii]

Today, I ramble. (Shut up, I know I do it every post, so :P) I ramble because... Tony is distressingly stable. wtf.

I think it's the dragon. (Still working on variations of that.) By necessity, Tony Impresses young: 12 in one, 17 in the other. The latent Tony issues—self-worth, control freak, addictive personality—are still there, but he's had someone riding around in his head for a good chunk of his life, and that someone is absolutely and 100% devoted to him. It eases his problems a bit. Then the change in timeline (100% AU) pretty much guarantees that a lot of Tony's less organic issues—survivor's guilt, abandonment, family—just don't happen or are severely muted.

It's really, really weird working with an only mildly neurotic Tony. I kind of like it. o.o;

Right now, the piece I'm working on is specifically the older-Impressed GoldRider!Tony one. I decided to divide it up into three areas: Tony gets sick, Tony Impresses, Tony becomes a Weyrwomanperson. I've just finished with Part 2, and now I'm staring at Tony in the upcoming part 3 and sort of... lost, I guess? IDK. I know how I want it to go, but it's pretty much veering wildly away from everything and it's just very odd. Steve is much easier. His character isn't based so much on "my life sucked and now I am messed up beyond redemption". I just hope Tony is recognizable as Tony...

IDK. Maybe I'm just being too harsh on my own writing because I'm tired and grumpy. (cuddles Tony)

Comments

[deviouslint.livejournal.com]

Dealing with AU Tony of any sort, when he is less messed up, is always interesting. This happens to me, and lupus_dragon in weird contexts when we doing something wonky like give Tony a kid. The situation seems sort of inverse to your Pern one - while there, Tony is soothed because he has one creature totally devote to him, in my head Tony with a kid has one person to be totally devoted *to.* He has to take care of himself, because someone is utterly reliant on him and he has something else to focus all his energies on. Of course, maybe this is the same issue? A kid would be pretty devoted to a parent, too. (Real Life Fact. My mom's pretty deranged and I still love her, inconvenient or not.)

Like how he's utterly reliant on so many of his close friends, Tony just *needs* people. Or, y'know, his dragon. So yes, he will never feel good enough, and he will hate any situation he's not totally in control of, and he will always think he's a shot glass away from disaster - but he winds up much less... issue-laden.

(I'm sure he'll still be recognizably Tony in your fic, by the way - mostly I rambled at you to assure you that you aren't the only one who doesn't know what to do with a nice, stable Tony.)

[velithya]

If your changes are valid given the AU-ness of your canon, then it's totally okay and people shouldn't be hating.

[sherriaisling.livejournal.com]

Tony is distressingly stable. wtf. That (shockingly) doesn't make him not Tony, though, because Tony Stark actually is more than just his issues. I mean, MA:A!Tony is happy and seems very issue free, yet he's still Tony.

a lot of Tony's less organic issues—survivor's guilt, abandonment, family—just don't happen or are severely muted. *nods* Because he literally can't be left alone. And (assuming Wikipedia tells me true) since Tony's dragon would die if he died, this Tony would actually fight to live and probably feel guilty if he did feel survivor's guilt because of his death meaning the dragon's death.

"my life sucked and now I am messed up beyond redemption" It's almost sad how that so is Iron Man in a nutshell. (Maybe the true reason behind the creation of Iron Man was to show that money actually can't buy happiness?)

The more I read about these, the more interested in these particular AUs I become. (Especially in the goldrider!Tony one, because I giggle at all the kurfluffle that will come from Tony ending up with a woman's position.)