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Well, I hit 15k on my AU Big Bang! But trouble lurks in the waters ahead. I never thought I'd have this problem. Really. Not ever. It's... Um. Well...

I think I broke Captain America.

(scratches head) Breaking Tony is nothing new. Happens all the time, really. I mean, it's harder to keep Tony together than to let him fall apart. Steve was never on my radar as breakable! I mean, really, it's Captain America! Made of steel in an understatement here. But...

First I realized that Steve's family was alive in 1610, so I had to deal with them. I could not go with the 1610 premise. It just wouldn't work. A major part of the story and its effects on Stevie is how the government pretty much decided to pretend she didn't exist, down to creating "Steven Rogers" in order to hide her gender after the fact. I can't see any loving family cheerfully letting their daughter's history be plowed under and rewritten. Well, I'd already established Stevie and Gail as being a couple, with Bucky and Stevie as each other's mutual beard. All things considered, it fits that her parents would be distant if they'd found out. So that gave her distance from them, and let them be enough bastards that they lined up and accepted a pay-off to keep their mouths shut.

Okay, so there's angst. Unexpected, but it makes the story work so she can masquerade as a man. But, um... I am having belated realizations about how stressful that must have been. Sure, she had Bucky, but (as much as I love Bucky), I can't imagine her trying to explain to him about missing make-up, or her hair, or just feeling isolated. So add that on top of fighting in WWII for stress.

And now she's at loose ends in modern New York, trying to figure out whether or not to go back to the base she busted out of. Some part of her wants to think that she can go back to her own time, but I think subconsciously she's already starting to write that off as impossible. (That'll have to be dealt with soon.) She's alone, assuming pretty much everyone she knows is dead, and she just found out that her parents cheerfully posed with a stranger pretending to be "Steven". Even if she does go back, she has no idea if she won't just be dealt with as a loon, since everyone knows Captain America was a man and (as far as she knows) the US has no interest in unveiling her as their dirty little secret.

I'm barely holding her together at this point. I think the only reason she's not bawling is because she can't afford to make a scene. I know where she's going from here, and I have a vague-ish idea of how it's going to end up—this story is a lot more unplanned than I'm comfortable with—but I can't find the nagging feeling that she's going OOC. Male!Steve never had to deal with all of that, and I doubt he'd break down in tears even if he did, but I'm not sure how much of that would have been his social conditioning or how much is inherent to the character and I'm losing it somehow.

IDK, maybe it's that we never get to see Steve's head the way I'm laying open Stevie's. We just see the actions and results. :\ This is bugging me.

But at least I hit 15k?

my 2c

Date: 2010-02-21 03:31 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] velithya
I think she holds it together, because she's strong, she's stronger than this, and fuck it if she could go through WWII and all the rest she's not going to let a little thing like this break her.

I think she works out a lot, though, probably bruises/bleeds her knuckles on a half dozen punching bags.

Re: my 2c

Date: 2010-02-21 03:46 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tsukinofaerii.livejournal.com
Oh definitely, when she settles in she's going to spend a lot of time breaking things, I think. (wraps her up in a blankie) But right now she's pretty dazed. If she didn't have an OC to propell her in the right direction, I think she'd probably just find someplace to sit and not think for a while. D: Close to overload.

Re: my 2c

Date: 2010-02-21 03:50 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] velithya
Right, but sitting somewhere and just being blank is a way of dealing, sort of. If she has music she listens to she could just sit and turn the music up and just drift for a while. Does she meditate?

(ps. hiiiiiiiiii man I am hoping IM2 will kick-start me fic writing brain again ^^;)

Re: my 2c

Date: 2010-02-21 04:56 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tsukinofaerii.livejournal.com
Right now the total of her possessions are 1) stolen sweatshirt, 2) stolen hospital scrubs 3) stolen sneakers, and a cup of coffee from a very nice librarian. She's heard modern music exactly once and the result was a broken stereo.;;

She's been out of the ice for less than 48 hours, so there's a lot of shell shock going on.

(PS: IM2 will, in theory, cure world hunger and cause a massive spike in population precisely 9 months after the premier. I'm sure it can solve your block. :D )

Date: 2010-02-21 01:48 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] valtyr
I have Ultimates open right here, and in the graveyard, right after Bucky and Gail, Steve wells up. He says "You should have left me in the ice where I belonged, General Fury. Everything I ever loved is gone" and tears spill over. So it is absolutely canon for Steve to shed tears when realising what's happened. Fury distracts him by pointing him towards the flag; so I guess you need to distract Stevie, give her something to focus on.

Date: 2010-02-22 05:32 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tsukinofaerii.livejournal.com
(facepalm) I totally forgot that scene, which is inexcusable because I've only read that volume a bazillion times for the references. I'm still not sure Stevie would openly cry though, but that's at least partly a setting issue. The middle of a public library is not the place for it.

*cough* Luckily, a certain Tall Blond Norse Someone is due to enter the picture soon. Hopefully, that'll help.

Date: 2010-02-22 05:42 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] valtyr
Well, I think she'd fight it, but there might be a tear or two slip out. If she is in a library, she might grab a book or a paper to hide in while she composes herself? (Also, Forties women knew all about putting on a brave face.)

:D he is certainly distracting.

Date: 2010-02-22 06:26 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tsukinofaerii.livejournal.com
When the overload happens, she's forehead-down on a table, so that's convenient. There's a nosy OC who interferes and offers donuts (I have been around non-USians too much. I keep wanting to add extra letters to that word) that is nice and motherly and much too seemingly understanding for Stevie's own good. The food is much needed, however. Her last meal was broth and questionable Jell-O.

He is! Especially when he does the Jedi Mind Trick thing like he did with Bruce. Erm. Will do with Bruce? Thingy!

Date: 2010-02-22 06:34 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] valtyr
Om nom doughnuts. I had them for breakfast. :D And boeuf borguignon. A good breakfast is important.

There are some advantages to being a very pretty young woman, even a towering muscular one. And one is that when you look lost and teary, people will cluck over you. Oh hey, I thought of a food thing that would be weird - out of season fruit. Oh, and the sheer variety of foods available. I demand Steve utterly paralyzed by the choice of a hundred breakfast cereals in one store.

The Jedi Mind Trick that happened with Bruce in canon. :D That would creep Steve out, though.

Date: 2010-02-22 07:06 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tsukinofaerii.livejournal.com
I had... um, a bagel? With cream cheese! And lots of coffee.;; Breakfast and I don't get along well, tbh. I'm rarely hungry before 10 AM, and really only eat because food is scarce at 10 AM.

Yes, they do! Stevie is a bit weirded out by this, because it's been a while since she presented as a young woman, so the "oh you poor baby, let me feed you" thing is puzzling. I'm not sure if she'll get a chance to go into a grocery store, but if she does, she will be very "oO But why are these shipped from across the world when they can be grown ten miles away?". Also, cereal, yes, and also being confused (and very pleased) as to the differences in feminine products. Tampons! (Which apparently were first mass-produced in the late 1940s, and which she really could have used.)

Yes! But it technically hasn't happened yet in this canon. (I'm thinking of calling it 1610-63, for lack of shorter forms.) It will indeed creep her out. :D

Date: 2010-02-22 09:53 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] valtyr
I have pretty erratic eating and sleeping habits - I have flexitime at work, so I start anytime between seven and eleven in the morning.

I'm not sure tampons would have been ideal, given TSS and such. But I bet she'll like them now. Or find them mildly scandalous. And all the meat - in the Forties, you didn't eat meat every day. Certainly not if you were poor. And probably, she'll find cheaper food a lot less flavoursome, as intensive farming has drained a lot of flavour out - and, perhaps, very fatty and salty.

Date: 2010-02-23 03:58 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tsukinofaerii.livejournal.com
I miss erratic habits. ;-; I used to have an evening shift, but I switched positions. I miss being a night person. :( Waking up in the morning is hard.

Thanking Wikipedia for Things I Never Wanted to Know: Apparently tampons were used for bullet wounds back then, so at least they existed in some form? But early pads were apparently bulky and awkward, and prone to slipping (GEE, some things don't change). Nevermind that they were probably easily visible in anything but a skirt. So I'm going to whistle and pretend not to think about it, because something would have to give and even I can only fangirl so much. Explaining Stevie's sanitary choices are not in the playbook. (Until I find some reason why it's needed, as seems to be happening lately.) I expect she'll like tampons when she discovers them, because nothing says "uncomfortable" like fighting evil when your pad is slipping.

Interesting note on history: When they could be afforded, women were allowed to place money in a box so that they would not have to speak to the clerk and take a box of Kotex pads from the counter themselves. So they'd rather use the honor system than have to look a woman in the eye and know she has, you know, bodily functions. Or maybe just the women were expected to be ashamed of themselves for said bodily functions, and this was to their benefit. Geez, no wonder my grandma was very RAWR against body shaming.

She's not sure that the modern diet is such a good idea. She kind of likes her vegetables and greens, and thinks that eating meat at every meal is surely bad for you. Good, old fashioned home cooked meals are to her liking: pot roasts, casseroles, stews and soups. I bet she knows how to make her own preserves too, and insists on gifting people with homemade canned goods for Christmas.

Date: 2010-02-23 02:20 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] valtyr
Mornings suck. :( But leaving work early is lovely fun.

Didn't they used to attach pads to a belt? Perhaps technical advances in sanitary products were in part due to the need for their supersoldier to be adequately equipped...

LOL Kotex of shame. Poor Steve. I think perhaps you can gloss over her sanitary choices, yes. Although her confusion when setting out to buy such things for the first time in the modern world would be entertaining. At least by then she might have Gail to advise her?

Fury will be completely bemused by being given a jar of preserves by Captain America. He will expect it to blow up, and check it for devices.

Date: 2010-02-23 03:07 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tsukinofaerii.livejournal.com
They did! Or they were left to just sit there and hopefully be held in place by gravity and hope. D: Well, Tampons were patented by the 1930s, and were being used for bullet wounds in the 19th century. If anyone asks, I can just say that, like many technologies, sanitary tech was more advanced because of magic/mutants/Cap.

I'm still arguing with Gail. (sigh) Pushy pushy character. I mostly think she just wants to arm-wrestle Tony for her girl's affections, and Tony hasn't even had a glimmer of a chance yet. If she hasn't run rampant all over her own backstory, then she might be dead. D: I moved things up to 2010, which makes her 90. I could back-date it again; there's only a couple references (the president sleeping on the oval office sofa, the "new style" in Washington annoying Tony, and one date-check o' horror). Even if Gail isn't available at all/yet, she'd still have Jan, probably Pepper (I love Pepper and I don't care that she's only a bit part in 1610!) and maybe Thor, who is secure enough in his muscle-bound manliness to be seen in the feminine aisle, even if having a guy know about her feminine needs make Stevie want to squeak. (Actually, I think she'd be more comfortable speaking to a complete stranger than to a male friend, now that I think about it, because at least she never has to see the stranger again.)

Tony will recommend sticking a digital timer on the jar for exactly this purpose. Fury doesn't need to know that it's just a "use by" thing.

Date: 2010-02-23 05:10 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] valtyr
LOL. The hidden benefits of Marvel Science. Although if I wore a costume like Carol's, I'd want to feel pretty secure.

Man, don't let her do that. Steve would totally settle down with Gail given half a chance, even if she IS ninety. Gail must nobly give up Steve, so she doesn't remain mired in the past instead of coming to grips with the future. I am sure Thor would be very understanding, but Steve does not want him to understand. She would probably cope well with the extremely practical and business-like Pepper. It all has the reassuring flavour of a military operation.

Date: 2010-02-23 05:40 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tsukinofaerii.livejournal.com
Same. D: Or maybe just take a pill to control these things most of the time, and bring a rain of wrath down on any villain who dares attack on her turf when nature is unavoidable. (I'm resisting writing terribly wrong fic where terrorists re-plan their attack because no one wants to risk fighting a PMSing Captain America. Meanwhile, unbeknownst to them, Stevie actually suffers very minimally, and her mood is greatly helped by Tony's wooing keeping her supplied with a vast assortment of expensive chocolate. Jan, on the other hand, likes to put those stingers to revenge-driven use.)

Killing Gail might be the easiest way, authorially speaking. D: She'll mourn, but the Gail-Bucky-Stevie dynamic is so different that I'm not sure Stevie could be convinced to give up. At least Gail and Bucky loved each other in 1610. Here, they were just friend and companions who happened to have a wedding and kids, so there's a lot less reason for Stevie to move on. Then again, if Gail is alive, Stevie won't be so completely and utterly alone. (balances) And if Gail is alive, Stevie might get that cathartic break-down she's really in need of. She wouldn't do it around anyone else.

Pepper is very reassuringly crisp and business-like. At least until it's discovered that she's a spy for Tony. Even then, there are some lines that she can be trusted not to cross, and I doubt even Tony is that interested.

Date: 2010-02-23 05:52 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] valtyr
Steve is human perfection. Clearly, her periods are short, light and trouble-free. I think there are implants now that prevent periods? In the slightly more advanced world of the MU, they are Better. LOL at villains trying to track Steve's menstrual cycle. Perhaps they can get Wolverine to stop by and sniff. Seriously, Wolverine and Daredevil must know a heck of a lot of stuff they really don't want to know.

D: Sadness. But... if Gail is ninety, honestly, she's likely not going to want a new relationship. I mean, I am all for the older generations getting their groove on in the manner they deem appropriate, but she's unlikely to be ready to upset and damage her whole life for the romance she had sixty years ago - and she's changed, a lot, and Steve hasn't.

Well, Tony is a micromanager, but as long as he's content Steve is not having difficulties, I doubt he'll interfere. They may end up falling out, eventually, over Sex At That Time Of The Month.

Date: 2010-02-23 06:42 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tsukinofaerii.livejournal.com
There are pills that spread it out to once every 4 months, so it's reasonable that MarvelU has advanced these things. If Tony can build a nightlight in his chest, it's reasonable that periods do not need to be completely frustrating. Villains might try to time it by her purchasing cycles, but are put off by her habit of waiting for a sale on her preferred items and then stock-piling. Following her mood is useless, as she's very good at maintaining a neutral gr-face no matter how violent she's being. It might just take someone with a good sniffer. How awkward.

I think it has something to do with that creepy, makes-no-sense disconnect in Steve's brain between numerical age and actual age. She thinks she's 90, so she's 90. Meanwhile, everyone else is very, "UM, not so much". So she really doesn't see any problem in just setting up house with Gail and Bucky, being "two lady friends and a husband" like they'd planned. Gail would have to shove her out the door. D: Trauma.

Trauma should not be tempting.;;

Tony will likely just tell Pepper to let him know if anything is wrong, and then plug his ears and try not to think about it. He loves womanly parts, but there are some things very few non-Thor men are comfortable with. There will definitely be falling out at That Time of the Month, and also a bit before. Stevie doesn't trust these pill things or the rubbers ("so thin!") entirely, so she'd rather just cross her legs than risk an unplanned pregnancy. Then, when Tony gets sadface that he's being told no, he'll pretty much end up dogpiled by everyone from Pepper "stop whining and sign this" Potts all the way down to Gail (if she lives) and her grandmotherly "do you know what a woman's body does to her right now" explanations. Either way, Stevie wins.

Date: 2010-02-23 06:54 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] valtyr
Quarterly pills/injections that prevent ovulation sound like a dream. Of course, Steve is resistant to an awful lot of drugs, isn't she? Yes, Steve is violent as a profession, she doesn't exactly need cramps to motivate her.

It was very endearing in Steve, his clear conviction that Gail was still wonderful and beautiful. I suspect it's not so much she thinks of herself as old, but that she still thinks of Gail and Bucky as young. Gail would take a firm line, I think, if she was convinced of what was best for Steve. D:

Well, I doubt Tony is particularly off-put by these things - he's not exactly a shy flower - but I doubt he'll want details, especially as him knowing details would probably alarm Steve. Steve can expect to receive a vast stack of studies on the effectiveness of contraeceptives. And then Tony puts a condom over his head to demonstrate the wonders of modern latex, which does at least make Steve laugh hysterically. Tony is somewhat traumatized at the idea of skipping sex for a third of every month. On the other hand, it's not like there aren't other methods of gratification. They just have to use some imagination.

Date: 2010-02-23 07:24 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tsukinofaerii.livejournal.com
They do! D: Though I would not be able to take injections. I'm known to get unpleasant near needles.;; But since the pill works using hormones, would it have the same effect? Using something that's already in her body would seem to me like something that might work.

Steve of any gender is, absolutely and 100% head over heels for Gail of any ages. It's amazingly sweet and adorable, yes. Gail would indeed take a firm line. I think Stevie's going to be pretty heart-broken. Wow, this is getting more depressing by the page. D:

Stevie says that she has plenty of imagination, but as long as he's being pushy she's not going to use it. She and the other women on the team have had long, private talks about how she doesn't have a duty to please anyone but herself, and she fondly remembers how easy it was navigating these things with Gail. However, if he finally resigns himself to being patient and perhaps developing a sore wrist, she might surprise him.

Am late! But have something to add...

Date: 2010-02-24 06:33 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cursor-mundi.livejournal.com
So, there were hormone supplements around in the 1940s, though they were stronger in dosage, and they were used to regulate women's menstrual periods. Sometimes to help them get pregnant--my grandmother wouldn't have been able to conceive without that hormonal adjustment (my uncle was born in...1942? And my mom in 1946. She needed help for both kids, and I think they stabilized her for a year or two before she went off it to conceive--the Pill makes you more regular, after all, and jump starts things, too.). It is entirely possible that Stevie was taking a super-early version of the Pill to control or even stop her periods; they had the science, they knew the side effects were minimal, they were just doing the long term human studies that concluded in the 1960s, which was when the Pill hit the wider market. Stevie would have access to even more advanced medical science than my grandmother, too. So don't reject the Pill out of hand--I think Stevie would be like "they got that to work right! :DDD"

And, remember, monthly menstruation is a very modern thing. Medieval women bled maybe 4 times a year, even rich and healthy women whose nutritional intake and environments most closely resembled modern situations. Stevie may be the peak of human perfection, but if she's in continual battlefield rationing situations, with minimal meat and lots of pre-processed stuff, she might not menstruate as often. Also, extremely athletic women--like Stevie!--can be perfectly balanced with their nutrition and their periods will become arrhythmic or stop completely, because you need a certain amount of spare energy, body fat, etc. to be fertile, and the type of muscle definition you see in super-heroines...yeah, those ladies do NOT have to go on the rag once a month. Far less frequent, I can guarantee that. And that is the human body optimizing its design and circumstances, so as long as Stevie is highly active, I think her super-soldier serum is going to reduce her fertility to minimum...failure to menstruate is reducing the demand on other systems, and isn't that one of the definitions of the peak of human potential?

Late is good!

Date: 2010-02-24 07:02 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tsukinofaerii.livejournal.com
1940s Pill is a neat option! I never knew that (and now kind of wish I had an excuse to bring it up in-fic, because it is an awesome piece of history trivia. Better than 1845 powdered gelatin.) It would make a lot of sense, too, since her masquerade was 100% of the time, and there were no breaks ever. Even being caught with the accoutrements of femininity would be questionable. Whereas just have a medication is completely normal and easy to slip by.

Actually, now that I think of it, if I go with early!pill, I can mention it in-fic. Stevie has... Hm, how to phrase this? She misses being a woman. Like, badly. She misses having pretty hair, and wearing dresses and all of the little things that mark her socially conditioned view of femininity. Even though it's a risk, she still shaves her legs because at least it's something that she can have to remind her of who she is. Losing her menstrual cycle, as annoying/painful/frustrating/etc as it can sometimes be, would hurt badly. They could even view it as an extension of the Super Soldier Project. A pregnant Soldier is a sidelined Soldier, and the brass have a pretty low opinion of any woman who is "unwomanly" enough to do what Stevie is doing. *depressed sigh*

In an OT side note, I love being in a fandom where there are serious discussions about these things, and the nitty-gritty details. ♥

My two cents! (Rampant speculation ahead)

Date: 2010-02-21 11:56 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cursor-mundi.livejournal.com
I think, from what you've described, that it would be reasonable to speculate that Stevie's overwhelming feeling would be one of relief, and that's something that can hold her together. She doesn't have to hide any more, because if Captain America was a man then she's clearly not that Cap (are there multiple Caps in 1610?), and she's free to be her own Cap (cue angst as to who that is, but that's for later), historical revisionism be damned. Sort of like coming out from being undercover for so long, she'd have the chance to revel in being herself, and because every aspect of her time as Cap was based on fraud, she'd feel an immense relief in the ability to be honest. Even with Bucky and Gail in on the secret, that was still a constant reminder that she was living a lie when she was pretending to be male, and if Stevie's honest like Steve is honest, that would not have sat well. She'd miss her family, but especially after the betrayal of the payoff, combined with the relief, I'm not sure that she wouldn't cry--not because she didn't want to, but because she's still used to overcompensating male character traits and might be telling herself that boys don't cry. She'd miss Gail more, because she essentially chose Gail over her family, and Bucky, because he knew the truth.

So, yeah, it's in character for a male Steve to cry, because he's got the security of his own identity, and the crying is a mourning for a lost aspect of that identity; but female Stevie would have been living with grief for the lost identity for a while now, and the isolation of a false identity, and the ice would have made it impossible for her to go back and make peace with her family, herself, that sort of thing. So if she cries, it could be even more intense, because it might be more frustration and missed chances and lost opportunity than anything else, the sort of thing that never goes away. She'd still need some event or person to point her towards what she needs to do, and undoubtedly she'd want to hit things quite hard, but she might almost be more upset at the lost chances and also the relief that now, no matter whether or not these modern folk believe that she's actually Cap, she can be honest. (And then feel intensely guilty for being relieved, because she'd think that is a selfish emotion, an indulgence she can't afford...because self-sacrifice is wired into her social gender, as well as the Captain America character, and maaaan, that's gotta sting!)

Urm, I hope this helps instead of complicating matters more?

I think I love you

Date: 2010-02-22 06:15 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tsukinofaerii.livejournal.com
This is exactly what's bugging me about this situation. There's an inherent back-and-forth tug between what she's been expected to behave like for the past several years (Canon!Cap, for want of a better description) and how she was originally socialized to behave ("like a lady" and if there's a phrase that still socially acceptable that I hate more, I don't want to realize it) that's just making me dizzy. And if it's making me dizzy, what's it doing to her?

I think I'm going to end up having to rewrite the last 200 words or so, because they're really not taking into account the whole last several years of bottling. Even if she does realize that it's unhealthy and she doesn't need to do it anymore, that sort of habit is pretty well impossible to break all at a go without things exploding. Possibly literally, in Stevie's case.

I feel like I've piled the angst on, when originally the idea was, "LOL, genderswitch 1610 Cap! :D" Poor Stevie!

Re: I think I love you

Date: 2010-02-23 05:53 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] valtyr
Even if she does realize that it's unhealthy

A woman from the Forties isn't likely to. Keep Calm And Carry On...

Re: I think I love you

Date: 2010-02-23 06:49 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tsukinofaerii.livejournal.com
Yeah. @.@ Though I think there's not many people even back then who would argue that an abiding urge to put her booted foot in people and then start crying about it is healthy, that doesn't mean she's really thinking of it as unhealthy. She's just dealing with things as they come, and not seeing how high the straw is piled on this particular camel's back.

Re: I think I love you

Date: 2010-02-23 06:56 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] valtyr
I guess she wouldn't really think of it in terms of healthy or unhealthy, that's kind of modern. Stiff upper lip until you can't, then have a good cry and get it out of the way, and then back to coping. :/

Re: I think I love you

Date: 2010-02-23 07:07 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tsukinofaerii.livejournal.com
Yeah, this. D: Except she hasn't had a chance for a good cry in ages. What if someone saw her? Back in the war it was like masturbating—just the worry of being discovered was enough to cockblock the release.

Wow. Actually, it was exactly like masturbating.

I worry about my analogies some days.

Re: I think I love you

Date: 2010-02-23 07:09 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] valtyr
That is an excellent analogy. Blimey, no wonder poor Steve's a bit... pent-up. D:


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